You're not alone

When your day is long, And the night. And the night is yours alone.. When you think you've had enough.. Of this life, Hang on.. Don't let yourself go, Cos' everybody cries, And everybody hurts. Sometimes..



Dedicated to the people down in Japan. :'(


The Tragedy that hit Japan yesterday, has had its own big impact on me.
Unlike the others thinking its the end of the world, or worried about our safety.
I was and currently am sadden by the whole event..
Yeah i know, there's nothing i can do, but seriously i wish i could do more..

.:Japan:.

Tokyo, It is probably the City i wanted to visit most.
Everything is there. and just yesterday, it was hit by Earthquakes and Tsunami. I didnt know if it was true at first. Cos i was in class.
Then everyone started talking about it on fb.
So i asked around. and the news really devastated me.. Like bigtime depression.
I guess one of the main reason is cos I know someone that lives in Tokyo.
I'm not sure which part. and I'm not sure if she's alright.
And damn, I'm scared and worried about her and her family and her friends.

She's like a little sister to me.
Altho we never met. We always talked about how one day, me n my friends would go Japan and meet up with her and her friends etc. or how we'd hang out like actual siblings. etc. etc.
heh.. she was also the first real person who actually called me an Angel.

and actually meant it. I dont know, I just feel really uneasy about the whole thing.
Japan, is like a place i wanted to retire to, when i get old and rich.
A city where i wouldnt mind being buried under.
But it seems the city is burying itself in, before i even have the chance to visit..
I believe in God, I believe in hope, I have faith.
But that doesnt stop the fear from building inside of me.
Everyone knows i love Japan. Despite how i plan to work in Korea.
Or go vacation in Paris someday. etc.
Everyone knows Japan is the origin of me growing up to being who i am today.
It was in its arts that i found out my ambition. and it was in its music, that I found myself. & it feels horrible when someone actually important to me lives there.
And there's nothing i can do about it.
She calls me an Angel and a brother. But I feel like i'm neither.
I dont know how she is over there, and i dont know if she's alright.
And that just feels wrong. Yes i barely know her.
Yeah she's just a little girl.
But.. I just.. I just feel soo wrong..
I dont know how people can still go through like nothing happened
like Japan isnt a big deal. Even when most technologies were created by them.
And what boils my blood even more is how some people can still criticize and be racist when they went through soo much yesterday.
I just really feel damaged by the thing that happened.
I dont even wanna think of the people that are lost.
Everything is just soo... sad......
I couldnt even sleep well last night.
Not scared of dying in the morning, but just sad of wat happened...

sigh...

While all this happened. my own life is going well.. :(
and a lil bumpy here n there, but still going well.
Going out with CG next week, and catching a movie with Alyn.
Hmm, that aside.. Started playing a new game with my coursemates.
Iris Online.
and then... Nothing much really..
ermm, Loving House Of Night Book4 :)
Loving my Guitar more n more.
Getting better in my college assignments.
So overall my life is great...
the only thing sad is the Japan tragedy part... :(
I really dont like these kind of things.
On movie screen its fine... in real life not so much..
I just hate the thought of ... losing people...
Sigh!
Thats all for now...
Peace & Love to all my readers
And if you can fit prayers in your busy schedule, please pray for my friend in Japan and her family, and everyone else whose in Japan.

Reunited :)

hahax So I had a not soo bad day today :)Altho the afternoon i was kinda emo-ing =X
but the night, made me happy... really happy ... :')


Anyway~
ermm, spent my morning, sleeping, reading, guitaring, eating and gaming. :)
Afternoon like i wrote about emo-ing. Had my usual expression session with God.
Cried. Slept. Felt better.


Then i received an sms. :'D turns out Soon came back from Johor. ahahax :)
so had our small gathering at Tarot Cafe ehehe~
it was my first time there. I love the atmosphere there.
it definitely feels like a Tarot Cafe x)
ahahax so we gathered there.
Me, Feng, Jing, Soon, Eric, Jun Yong, Siang Yong, Andy, Amelia
I ordered Chicken Katsu Don. DISAPPOINTED. Cos i can make better Katsudon :x lol! so yeahhh, but then it's good enough la~~ xD I enjoyed the drink more. :)

It was based on the tarot number reading..
So we're suppose to add up our bday.. and then add that number together

1992+06+06 = 2004
2+0+0+4 = 6
pfft! I'm always 6!! xD

and no.6 was none other than~~~~ The Lovers :) Ironic
but then it fits me..And the horoscope compatibility was of course, none other than, Gemini :)
So i ordered it..
The Lovers = Vanilla IceCream Shake + Dragon Fruit...

Its actually really really nice xD ahaha~ LOVE IT~
So having a fooling around, eating dinner session with my friends was well... fun :)

we went to Boulevard afterwards. just to waste time.
LOL reminds me of one of Avril's music video.
Go Mall luan~ xD joked around, played around. and just had fun la~
Interesting evening x)
I miss Soon soo much lor~ glad he's back. even if just for awhile. LOL! gay huh? xD

so yeah~ came back at around 10...
Gaming with the gang online before they all went off to sleep. :)
ahahax and thats pretty much it for today.. really good night.. ehehe.

Tho I still distaste single life :X
but then I thought about alot of things during the outing.
and I swear, going into a mall doing crazy stuff can make one wonder alot~ I basically pictured how my future home is gonna look like and thats huge for me. So who ever I'm destined to be with in the future, I hope would appreciate the things i like too. Awaiting for Her arrival~ ehehe :)



Ena came back today too! tho i lost contact with her for the night! D:
I seriously hope I have chance to meet up with her too.
Hmmmm.. I guess that's all i have to blog for now.

there are still loadsss of people i wanna hang out with this month! x)

Amazing

Cos She's So High~ High above me, she's so lovely.
She's So High~ like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc, or Aphrodite~

What? ohhh~ The top sentence? Its a song :)
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So its been 2 weeks since I last posted anything. Wow! I've been busy. ahahax.. Lets see, Lets start from previous week then. Hmm, Oh! Nothing much happened really.




!~PREVIOUS WEEK~!
(21st to 27th Feb)

For Classes, Wednesday (23rd Feb) we were introduced to a new website for SEGians called The SEGiSphere. Its like Ebay. we can put up auction or auction for stuff on there. :) also can advertise our projects and stuff. Mehh~ Friday! I actually used my CANON XL1S and we finished filming the 100plus Ad with my Collegemates. :) ahahax, it was loads of fun :)) ehehe! that SATURDAY morning. Learnt my first song on Classical Guitar. LOL! Noobish! learnt Mary Had A Little Lamb. X_X mehh! it was actually quite ok lor~ 2nd lesson already learn a song. I didnt goto Church that night. Fell ill. Hmm, Sunday Sunday Sunday~ Well nothing happened on Sunday either :\ huh Dull life.. And then came last week :)

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!~LAST WEEK~!

Nothing much happened last week either. Huh..
Strenghten my friendships with some of my friends :) with sms-ing, random drawing dedications, chatting online, hanging out when got chance and stuff like that
Oh! Went to watch Drive Angry with the gang.
Not a bad movie. LOL! fallin in love with an actor :)
(Not in the i wanna date him kind of way, more on the He's an awesome Actor and I wanna watch all his shows kind.)
I have a broken heart, not a broken sense.
Anyway! the actor is none other than William Fichtner.
Yes! the guy who played the f'king detective on Prison Break.
He did soo well in Drive Angry, tat It made him just look awesome! :D
That said! Me loves my friends.. To be honest,
I dont even know if I can handle another relationship, I wouldnt even know how.
Life's been really busy, altho it may seem like i'm not doing much.
But days pass like they are only seconds of my life.
And there's still soo much I need to do! So yeah!
Uhhmm!!! Hmm! Last thurs went to eat McD :) joked around with my friends.
Ahahax Nice afternoon that was.
Bought House Of Night Book4. :) which is really really awesome!
Friday Class like no class, go in sign attendance go home nia ==!
Saturday, Church. Not bad :) Sermons on the holy spirit awesome.
Lend Book 3 to Mabel. LOL! she seems psyched.
Uhh Lending book1 to Callie tis week (just making a mental note)
hmm, Sunday also nothing special
Due to Tau Feng going trip, he and I couldnt attend guitar class on saturday,
So we swtiched to yesterday afternoon. So that was my Sunday.
ahaha,Guitar :) And that's pretty much it...
Nothing new.. nothing special.
missing loads of my old buddies :\ You Know Who You Are.




Waiting for Next Outing With Alyn them. Hopefully wont get cancelled.
And thats pretty much it.

Tried to fix the broken friendship. but was unable to.. sigh! oh well..
maybe time would fix that..

hmmm, Ena coming back from Singapore today. LOL! said she bought my a gift.
but not giving it to me, until I actually meet up and chia her ==!

My form6 buddies are having exam this week, wish y'all the best of luck :)

Thats all about my friendships :)



ENTERTAINMENT



So First off, I just watched WWE: Elimination Chamber 2011 And I gotta say, Morrison ROCKED! tho he lost. He definitely left his mark on the Chamber :) with his Epic leap off the chains up about 20feets in the air. Wicked Awesome! :'D I wanna be able to do that too!
Dont worry! Thats the only spoiler I'm gonna say.







And in the form of American Idol. I'm Heartbroken once again, cos one of my fav. was outvoted D: Brett Loewenstern~ Him and his epic hairshake was awesome on stage, but I guess he's too different for people to actually vote for him to stay or even win. lol..
of course alot left too~ I mean 24 people and only 13 went through to finals D:








Avril Just got her latest album out :) I got it and loving it :)
Simple Plan's single coming out soon.
& they purposely scheduled their album release on June 21st. Cos its the time when all the planets align :) and they just wanna make it an Epic day for their EPIC album release, which is sooo unfair! cos i freaking cant wait any longer! Oh and the song at the very beginning of the post is called "She's so High" Its an old and very nice song. Check it out :)







thats pretty much it for everything.. mehh! life's been busy but dull. pfft!
Still loving my awesome friends. Still have my hopes on fixing a few things.
Need time, but getting there.. I think? ROFL!
uhh yeah. thats pretty much it..
Happy Holidays to those who are still awaiting SPM result.
Good Job to those who gotten their STPM result.
Good luck to those having exam week.
And peace out xoxoxoxo love love love to all my friends out there :))

Not Bad ;)

I had by far the best week of the year :)) hehehe ♥ ♥ ♥

Shall we just move on the Vintage! News of my life? ehehe~ xD

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~♥~FRIDAY~♥~

Friday: Digital Audio/Video Class

Had lots of fun. Shared ideas, Created plans, and finished our Script and Storyboard for our Ad, now all we need is to film it! Our luck when down hill when we found a nice place to film. Cos Miguel's Camcorder malfunctioned. we were all like completely "WTF?!" So filming delayed till next week, where we'd be using MY Canon XL1s. Hope for success ;) And since we didnt have a Camcorder to film at that moment, we went back to class. Telling Valerie (the lecturer) that we had Technical Problem. So we ended up Watching Mr.Bean On Vacation on someone's Laptop (yes i know, "WTF?! Mr.Bean" X_X!) till class ended and we went home. I also texted with Adeline (who was at Johor at that time) that day. Jealous! she gets to go on vacation on a school day D: ROFL!

♥~ All in All, Nothing Much Happened On Friday, Just Had Great Fun With Course mates ~♥

~♥~SATURDAY~♥~

~Morning~
First Off, I LOVE THIS PIC!
It represents my Saturday soo well! hehe!
SO! YEAHHH! woke up at 7 on Saturday.
Had my breakfast and milo. Waited for Feng to come, and we went on our way~ Where? To Mr.Sim's House. Yesh the Guitar Teacher. We Registered! xD And its awesome.. Oh, Learning Beginner, Classic Guitar. :) meaning learning to be a guitar player that actually knows how to play and knows what he's playing. Instead of those lame Folk/Rhythm Guitar players! So anyway due to not having any Music background. Me and feng had to start at the verrryyyy bottom. Oh! First off, Mr.Sim rocks, he's damn charismatic ;) and can really shred a guitar! Going for his class = Using his studio guitars. and damnnnn those guitars are fiiiiiinnnnnneee~~~ damn nice to play. His Guitars one costs around 500 - 700 of course. which is No wonder why its soo damn nice. He said if we plan to buy new guitar, can just contact him, and he'll intro :) he also can service broken guitars and shit. So thats really awesome ;)


Anyway For our First class, we learned alot of basics d ;D I know how to read notes liao! ehehhe! also! he said that Justin (Justin Sing from Graphic Designs in SEGi College) also took Guitar lessons at
the place, Since Primary school! which was a big shock to me and feng. LOL! who would've thought...So after a really really awesome first day, My fingers hurt but it felt f'ckin awesome! and yes its THAT AWESOME! anyway! my classes are now fixed for Saturday 10am ;) ehehe! Its great~~ Love it soo soo much!





~Afternoon~
After Classes went back to Green Road, and had (my fav) Nasi Lemak+Fried Chicken and of course~ Teh C Peng Special. at the green road kopitiam. LOL! Chatted with feng about loads of random stuff as alway~ then he sent me home afterwards ;)
Went gift shopping throughout the entire afternoon after that. ehehe~ went to loads of shops, only to find that suitable things are too expensive, and cute things arent that cute at all. LOL! But after hours of searching, I found the perfect gift.. Or rather.. God shook me and told me that, that's the right gift. So with my Spirit instinct I bought it down, and tadah! done with the gift, when to get wrapping paper too. x) Thought out the perfect present wrapping design too. ahahax, so yeah overall it was a good morning and good afternoon. Thank God for always being with me..




~The Night~
So anyway~ after gift hunting, went to eat at HongKong Noodle House, came back home, got ready and was on my way to church~ :)
hehe~ there's gonna be a party this tues! woooowww. That aside. Well nothing much happened at church to be honest. I love the new Worship song. Uhh, Mabel seems to be coming back to church every week (which is great!) LOL! she returned me the 2 books after service. Going to lend her book3 tis coming saturday. hmmm! wat else am I missing?! uhh uhh~ Ah well! nothing much happened for Youth then.. Came back home afterwards, wrapped the present, did some collegework. and went to sleep. :) Since I have a big day on sunday too! xD

~♥~SUNDAY♥SUNDAY♥SUNDAY~♥~

Well woke up at 7, had breakfast and went for morning service in church. Since I'd be busy in the afternoon ;) hehe! Communion service. and eee! God's presence was really working xD But Nothing much to talk about either. Cept' I havent stepped into the Sunday Morning service for quite some time d, cos i always go English service. And To be honest, I'm surprised. There were lots of people i never seen before that are in the morning service. hehe! which is great xD So that aside! After service, went to supermarket with mum awhile, cos she wanted to buy some groceries.

Afterwards I was on my way to Adeline's house :B
Twas her bday and she was holding a party. So yeah! Reached.
handed her her present. Said hi-s all around, Helped out with something lame. Ahem! Balloons o____o! LOL! Watched "Despicable Me" while doing the balloons.
More and more guests flood in. ROFL I only knew Erica and Adeline there tho. :\
Ah well~ While waiting for the food, everyone was just helping out. And having random chitter chatter. blueks~ After the food was done. Everyone gathered to pray before digging in. lol.. yeahh! that one was a wee bit awkward for me.
Being a protestant and all, and never actually stepped foot in Catholic churches means I just closed my eyes and bowed my head, while they said their prayer. Still! it was interesting. Hehe ^^" Anyway! when we started eating, we were watching "UP" I dont know why they keep putting on Pixar movies :O
ROFL! So yeah~ ate. watched. talked. blah blah blah.
After that movie, We had "How To Tame A Dragon" on :\ yeah! 3 movies.
(The party lasted from 1+ till 5ish for me. Which is reallyyy long)

Anyway! halfway through the movie, we paused it cos it was Desert time ;)
So they brought out the Bday cake, sang happy bday and cut the cake. Then before we started eating, 2nd Desert came out, Choc Pie, sang happy bday in mandarin and Malay. Then the 3rd cake came out. And some of people sang some weird version of happy bday ROFL! so yeah! Afterward went back to the movie, talked and ate the deserts. YUMMY~

After awhile, some people started to leave d~ We played a random game just to pass time afterwards tho~ lame! but nice la~ felt like Cell Group Fellowship. LOL!
So~ Overall had fun. Sang in Public too, which is like a totally uhh~ new experience for me? I mean i sing in Kbox yes, but that's with friends and actual music, and without a stupid clown hat on ~.~ ROFL it was punishment for the game. LOL! anyway! Ended at around 5ish, Adeline started to open her gives first, via request from her friends :) and she did. LOL!
Uhh! My present design FAIL! Cos the gift got stuck to the tape! :O
Thankfully, it didnt damage the gift. Rofl, Neways hope my Instinct was right. Hope she loves the gift. hmph~ took a pic with her and was on my way home~
hehe, nothing much happened after that. But overall it was a tiring day :)

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So anyway! Loads of things happening for me this year! hehe~ want to finish guitar lesson ASAP of course. wanna be able to shred like a rockstar before midyear xD Also! Next month going out with Alyn, and maybe Jason and Aishang too. LOL need to get my pendrive back from Alyn. Looking forward to that. I kinda miss her! And to be honest, there are loads of friends I miss hanging out with. Ying! you're on that list D: I miss hanging with u! Hang out when free eh! Rofl! sometimes I wonder if she still kept the necklace I gave her last time~ hmm~ So Anyway! Seriously, Hang out when free la~ rawr! we use to go out soo often de bo~ Now hardly ever see one another T.T sniff sniff~ ROFL! hahax~ :) Joking, just meet up when you can ya? I know u have loads of stuff to deal with too. huggies! take care bff!!! ;)

I'm seriously really really thankful to have all you people around me ;) you all rocks!
hehe! hope our friendships last forever neh ;D So anyway! I cant wait for next month xD loads of new movies coming out. Also! all my assignments would be starting by then xD loads of work, loads of fun, loads of experiences to be well.. Experienced. ehehe.. But now.. I need a freakin new guitar!


Thats pretty much it :) ehehe! Oh yeah, one of my American Idol season 10 Fav.
"Emma Henry"
didnt make it through Hollywood week D: sad la! Well actually to be honest, I just like her for her hairstyle LOL! :) Awesome! and somehow reminds me of bf :O maybe its cos of the hairstyle, hmm!

Bluek! cant wait for this week's episode tho, they be singing songs by The Beetles. Goodie. :) nothing else to say really

Heard an interesting song when buying the gift on saturday tho. Falling in love with the song. Hehe! its; "Give me your eyes" by "Brandon Heath". Its really nice.
So neway. thats all I have for this week.

so PEACE~~ out~ ;)

Sweet... :')

Wow. Been about a week since I last posted x) Anyway nothing much to say.. I just wanna thank God for placing such great people in my life. ehehe. Lets goto the news on my life :))
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The Collision

It was the day, our worlds collided that I was forever bound in this Connection with thee~ ♥ ;)


~RELIGION~
Like A Dove

Learning To Not Let Emotions Cloud My Better Judgment.
Learning To Not Let Reality Eat Up My Hopes & Dreams.
Campus Ministry On The Rise.
With A New Leader For My Old School's Ministry Too.
May God Bless Them To Bless The Others In SMK Sungai Maong ♥


The Spirit Filled The Air On The 13th, And Like A Dove It Fell From The Sky, Anointing Me From Head To Toe ♥
Twas Amazing Service With Rev.Stephen Goh From CHC (SG)

~Lifestyle~

This pic is dedicated to all my Beloved readers and passerbys~ RAWR~♥♥♥

And the Green is to represent The Green Hornet! LOL!
went to watch it with my Best Friends (Adeline & Erica) last night and Fredrick (feb 16) & An Awesome night it was. I Missed You Guys! :'D Happy To See You All Are Well!
& Hope You (Adel) Have Great Fun at Johor! Come Back Soon Ah! ;)
And and and you're right! We hang out wayyy to little! :X
Lets hang out more when free! hehe XD


Oh Lookie! Now Its PURPLE!
;) Hehe, Lent House Of Night Book 2 to me sis; Mabz ♥♥♥
to be honest I prefer Book 3 ahaha ;) Still Happy that she got her license and new BB.
That she cant stop showing off ~ ahem ahem ahaha ;)




PINK! :) for the sweet people known as my Coursemates! hahas
My friendship with each individual getting more n more better. So not bad la! xD
hehe~ somehow, we feel like one big family ki! I mean reallyy... XD
Even marcurse drive me home ROFL! XD soo nice ah~~ ROFL
to be honest~ i dont know why people always treat me soo nice .__.! very touching!




Wow! Now RED! So Seems Like Every Thurs Lunch I Spend It With Jing, Feng, Eric, Justin & Wesley. Not bad ;) we end up at KimBay again. LOL! Saw Nisha there, waved at her.
Saw Jamie there too, waved at her. SEGi. Its really really like One Big Happy Family.
Anyway! Going for guitar lesson this Sat with Feng! wakaka ;) Cant wait to start.
& Thats it for lifestyle


~Entertainment~

Hillsong United: AFTERMATH (2011)

It released on Valentine's Day :) Same time I got it. It's awesome.
Though I preferred their previous Album (Faith+Hope+Love) more.
Ahaha, I have more fav song on that album than this one.
Still! Its very SpiritLifting :D so Like it! ;) hehe
A Must Hear For Any Christian, So Check It Out!

Carrie Underwood's Temporary Home

its an old song by her, (not that old, it was released in 2009)
But not alot of people listened to it then. So bringing it here.
A must hear for anyone :)
Also! Check out "Just A Dream" by Carrie Underwood.
(No! she didnt steal the title from Nelly, her song came out first)
To Be Honest, I prefer Carrie Underwood more than Taylor Swift. So check her out, if you dont listen to her. And Theres A REASON why she was the winner of American Idol (2008)



Tokio Hotel!
So havent heard much of them lately huh?!
But their new song is really awesome a must check out too!
Hurricanes And Suns :)

And Thats It For My Daily Life For This Week.
Kinda Dull. ROFL! I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS :D You're ALL FREAKIN AWESOME!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxo

!~PEACE & LOVE~!

Flashback

Today's probably the best day of the year for me (for now at least)... And it thought me alot.. :O... Alot.... and abit of regrets too D: Read on to know about it~♥

First off, I got invited out to Callie's house yesterday for visiting.
So this morning I met up with Stella at Tabuan Plaza.
(cos i dont know Callie's house!) we then went to her house..
talked in the car. got to know my collegemate more :) which is good~
And then at Callie's house, we talked and joked.. blah blah blah
Then we went to Stella's house, With Callie's bf following us (he drove by himself la)
we joked talked and had fun in the car. LOL!
Me n stella felt like bulbs lor! :X
ahem!

anyway! after that, we talked about random stuff.
So to be honest, it felt nice to get a better friendship with my coursemates..
After visiting Stella's house, we went to a random shop, so Stella can hand her car over to her mum. And we used Callie's bf's car to go out for lunch
We went over to 木木小屋. :)
LOL! had my fav there of course~
Choc Milkshake + Lemon Chicken Rice..
LOL! we played 飞机棋 just to waste time and finish our deserts.
Callie lost! xD ahem!

Lol.. I thought 木木小屋 would bring me lots of memories... and to be honest it did..
ALOT! but... it didnt hurt as much as i thought... it just made me miss her.. but nothing more than that... Have I really move on? Not really.. But then.. I learnt that, I dont have to. I just need to cherish the time i had with her. As in for real, the good and bad.. especially when there werent soo many bad parts :\ ..
Anyway! Callie and her bf, poke here and slap there and mess hair with each other, making again~ me and Stella felt like bulbs.... and also trigger some memories for me :\
but i'm happy for them :) its sweet! lol!

Went into class late! OPPS!!
:) but got others later than us! HAH!
anyway... blah blah blah..
Class New Assignment is have to come up with a storyboard by next week for our video. :O
I got stuck in a group with..

Miguel Faylona (Filipino)
Elton De Rozario (I have no idea wat race he is!)
Macurse (Sarawak Local!)
Shaamil (KL Malaysian)
Lai Kian Fatt (Chinese)

So yeah! hoping to have Innovative and Creative and unique ideas in this BIG range of a group :)

anyway..
suan and played around with my mates ==! LOL!
and after class. Chatted with Callie when we were waiting for our ride homes..
And it triggered alot of stuff in me...
But what triggered me most was her sentence about relationships;
Like if her bf doesnt trust her type; she'd just tell him to leave, cos her friends are more important to her..
and talked about all the problems she faced in the past. :)
I never told her mine of course, cos i barely know her..
But I feel like i really made friends today :') which felt good for me.
And it thought me alot... so heres the lowdown.

1) COUSIN WAS WRONG! You Can Make Friends In College. NOT Everyone Are People Users :O

2) I owe Pric an apology.
today I was reminded that I had fun with her regardless of watever relationship me n her had. If we werent serious and hanged out as friends. I think we'd have had the same amount of fun as well. I'm not holding to the past, But i do remember them.
And how i wish i could apologize to her face to face.. but i cant. :\ Or at least not yet..
The thing is, I wasnt being fair to her at all. I guess I never trusted her when I should have.. but events left me unable to trust her.. when the truth was that she really trusted me. And I betrayed her..
My emotions blind me to feeling the one Betrayed.. But I was wrong.. A part of me wish YOU would be reading this here.. But I dont know if she reads my blog anymore. If Friendships are important to her. Than I wanna be her friend.. I can say I dont trust her. But thats a lie.. I do.. Cos I was the one who betrayed her..
Actually the Only real betrayal she did was when she gave me a Late Explanation. I dont hold a grudge against that.. Haiz! I HATE realizing things late!
Like now! I have... alottt... alot of regrets.. I was happy to be just her friends when me n her were friends.. I dont know how all this affected me the way it did.. and it didnt.. I wish I could have another chance.. "I'm sorry I misunderstood you.." is what i wanna say to her soo badly rite now.. but then I have this whole entire life to have a chance to be her friend again! So that's something!

3) I've been watching Matrix lately.. (Cos i was too young to know wat the whole thing was about!) and It Thought Me!

(a) "Decisions are given to those with Power, But Decisions are just an illusion. Because Of Fate; We've Already Made The Choice. The Read Headache About Decisions Are The Reasons WHY We Made Our Choice." :) So because Of This.. I figured the reason out.. I am Emotional. And its what makes me strong. In A Good Way And Bad. I'm not without power, I do have choices. And I've made my choices soo far.. And the Reasons are clear now.. But as far as my heart goes; I want to fix my broken friendship with my sis (if she'd still consider me that)

(b)Reality Is Limited Only Cos Of Our Minds. If We Set Our Minds Free To Imagination, We can Do All Things.

(c) I Freakin' Believe I Can Levitate If I Wanted To! LOL! A Christian Look To This Would Be.. If God Made Man In His Likeness. And Put US In Control Of This World. WE STILL ARE THE ONES WHO CONTROL THIS WORLD. Although The Fruit Of Evil Has Corrupted Us And Made Reality Soo REAL To Us.. The Earth Is Still Ours.. So I'm like thinking, If We Believe It.. We Can Actually Do Anything. Our Corrupted Minds Are The Only Thing Keeping Us From Not Being Able To Do It.. And THAT RIGHT THERE! Is My New Fuel To Doing All Things Without Fear :'D

Heh! Anyway!
That Aside, Life's Been Well Okaye... Tho I've Been Being Eaten Up About V-day..
But The Chat After Class Made Me Felt Better..
I Guess I Should Appreciate What I Have More Than To Want More Than What I Have :'(
I feel really really bad right now.. So Holding On To Chances When I Can Actually Redeem Myself And Not Let It Pass Me By Again~

OHH! Found Out Panic! At The Disco Released Their New Song's Official Video!
Ballad Of Mona Lisa~ Love it!
Mona Lisa! I'd Pay To See You Frown ! :O! ROFL!
Lovin The song :)) So Yeah... All That Boosted My Mood. :D Tho I Regret Alot... :\
I guess.. The reason why I dont like to make friends much and dont trust much is cos I got betrayed by alot when i was young.. I can remember alot of them.. I regret that..
I never treated friendships as anything important after my childhood..
Now then I know lor.. Friends are important.. I wanna.. try.. to make friends..
But I wont trust yet.. I thought Pric was the reason I stopped trusting.. but I guess. I Never actually Trusted anyone.. So Before i actually make great friendships.. I wanna fix one of the greatest friendship i ever had first.

The only thing I STILL DONT UNDERSTAND IS!
Why Didnt Anyone Just Tell Me Straight Out What They Thought About Me? D:
then again.. I guess no one ever actually understood me enough to know. And Probably still dont..

LOL! But I'm Glad I Learn A Lot Today :) ♥

Phoenix

Lovin This Song :') 天籁传奇 (Sounds of Nature Legend) by 凤凰传奇 (Phoenix Legend)


美丽的草原~ 别说我不在~ 我就是你身边 那一朵云彩~ 不一样的河流, 不一样的山脉. 我想变成一只蝴蝶~ 自由自在! 有一种喜悦 叫做等待~ 有一种幸福 我们都在~

I like that part; There's a type of joy, called; Patience~ There's a type of blessing; we're all here.


So anyway!
My chinese new year week!
well! First off. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
First 2 days of CNY visit family nia. :O
but today had a great CNY visiting with my friends. from 11am all the way till 6pm. xD
so yeah!
went all the way to matang to meet up, and went to most of our friend's houses up that side all and worked our way down to green road, stapok, all the way till annie's house at 8th mile. :O
:) Falling sicker! but i dont care! XD we went to The Spring after that :)
all helped Jing to buy a present for his mum. we wanted to catch a movie.
But no tix. LOL! so we ate dinner and went back home after finding the gift.

Nothing much to say really. just a really tiring day.
Heard lots of nice songs in Jun Yong's car~ like the own i just mention up top :)
hehe! Overall a great day i guess. :)

I broke down just now... :\ heh! but i Understand alot more after it.
PTL for that I guess. hehe!

Say hey!

Inside the empty room, I sat at a table for 2. But only one seat to fill. 2 Tables across from me, was an angel dressed in blue. Her gaze pierced my heart & soul, I was left uneasy.. insecure.. But with a blink she was gone..






What? Oh! The above sentence? Its just something random that happened tis' all. heh. It was a totally Weird experience! :\ Anyway, I havent been posting much lately.. Bro came back for CNY, means he's been using the computer more often. Still.. Kinda glad he's back. I guess.. Hanging with family actually stops me from thinking about... ya know... blueks! So anyway!
Last friday! after shopping, I saw a guy (around 20ish) driving a car, with a girl next to him, screaming and crying, He looked to my car as he was driving. And I can tell from his face that it held the; "This is why i leave you" look. lol, he just kept driving while the girl keep screaming and rocking front and back, pointing at him and stuff. Even smack him for not replying. O_o Drama during a traffic jam. Life is weird! So anyway, It got me thinking that. At least things didnt go that way for me. :X okay, it might have. But not the same as them. So i'm kinda glad that what happened between me and.. her. Was with a condition where we stop contacting and all that.. Cos I swear, just looking at her breaks my already broken heart to pieces. zz.. UHH!
BLUEKS! Overthinking again!! NEXT!!!! Lets Talk about~~~

STYLE

I got myself a new Werewolf shirt and a vampire shirt for CNY. LOL! If you people know me well enough you'd understand the clothes i bought. Gonna get new jeans and gloves soon too.. Maybe a new vest as well. :) If you wanna change, should start fro the Exterior rite? heh.

BOOKS

I'm gonna get "House Of Night Book 3: CHOSEN" when school restarts next week. :D I'm loving the series :O maybe I'll buy the entire series by the end of the year. :) and book trade em' with my college-mate Nisha. LOL! I'm pretty sure lending House Of Night series for Stephenie Meyer books are definitely worth it. No? xD

"What's New?"

Nothing much happening lately, My com sux. lol, gotta upgrade it (or format it) soon. hmm.. oh! went to church CNY celebration. saw tyt jie with her new curly hair. me likey :O The new look for the new year fits her. at least to me. hmm.. Made a few new friends, got better friendships with old friends. And i guess thats it.. Oh! got A- for my color studies. A- for my english too.. B- for my drawing... and sucky enough.. F for my History of Arts. and here I tot I could pass that. D: Anyway, focusing more on college work this year. As long as I can keep myself busy, I wont have time to be hurt by the things around me. Gotta Keep myself busy~ busy busy busy~ :D OH LOOKIE! GUITAR! yes! going for guitar lesson around March xD Tau feng still considering to join me. And thats it about me. Nothing else been happening really.. My life's on track. I just dont know where the track leads