Heart Breaking.. Literately

"It's Too Late. It's My Fate. I Cant Turn Around. There's No Fear In The Mirror To Hold Me Down. I'm Too Far From The Start. Now I'm In Too Deep. I Gotta Stick To The Plan. Cos' There's No Plan B." - M A N∀ F E S T




So.. like..
I dont know what's wrong with me..
I felt emo since waking up. nothing seems right.
I wanna relax, i wanna chill, i wanna find myself.
Cos somewhere along the line, i lost well.. me, myself.
I DONT KNOW WHO I AM ANYMORE!~
And its a scene i know soo clear.
I've just turned one huge round back to where I started from.
Not knowing who i am... Sigh..
my chest hurted just now, i have no idea why.
I cried just now due to overthiking.
so yeah, today isnt really my day.
just posting to get my thoughts out.
If i was a Sim from Sims 2 or 3.
I'd be the one with the Family Aspiration.
rofl. cos thats pretty much all i aim for in life.
not being a superstar, not being famous, not overachieving.
Just having a decent job, a good wife and a happy family.
and the thing is, i dont know if thats possible for me.
I'm creative and thats all i am.
I know i can be perfect and wonderful just as how God has made everyone to be.
but in the end, i just dont know if i can make it.
Everything else doesnt seem worth it.
and the only reason i'm still alive is cos i still have Hope.
I still have Faith in God. Sometimes that runs low.
I just feel soo lost right now.
i just wanna be happy.
eeeiiiissshhhhhhhhh...
Life is officially... meaningless.
to me. for now. at least. :(
sigh! save me.. anybody?
I know I should just be patient and wait for the good thing to come.
And I of all people should know that it's gonna be soon.
Buttt... I'm as always, bad at being patient.
I'm not good in waiting.
So I pray that the good days that are to come, be comin' soon.
Pretty please ♥ ? .___.!
that's pretty much it.