Displacement . Disappearance . Development

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The more you like yourself, the less you're like anyone else, which makes you unique. - Walt Disney


.:Displacement:.

I've displace my life from something i know and love, To something i should never had cared about. A lot of time has passed since I last felt alive. And the experiences I've had along the way pushed me back to my roots. I am what I am. I've lost myself, but now I'm found anew. I've wandered lost for so long, Only to find the displacement of me and my old self was but a step away. I'm tired of hoping, tired of waiting, tired of wishing, tired of dreaming, tired of being everything I am.

.:Disappearance:.

On the verge of letting go of everything that's holding me back and down. I've come to realize the reason behind my demise. A compassionate heart. A weakness of mine that has caused more harm than good. Love. Why do you love someone who've hurt and rejected you? Or why are you still willing to try your best despite the pain? A mystery that can never be solved. A feeling that is often taken for granted. A heart as broken as mine can never be fixed... And now I feel as though, I don't want it to be.

Nobody cares, nobody notices, when it comes right down to it... I'm alone...And within the shards of my broken heart, I cast out all the pain, suffering, feelings, emotions, love, hate... Wishing for it all to disappear and to never be found. I've been hurt enough for one lifetime. I wish only peace of which only solitude can offer me. This is the conclusion that has been shown to me.... Before anyone notices, I'll be gone forever.

.:Development:.

The end of me. A process by which I will be reborn into something stronger. What I've learned from past experience, is no one is gonna care if you give up on yourself. Especially if you've given up on yourself, but not on them. By which has showed me truth and enlightenment. Giving up on myself isn't gonna change anything. The world will still suck and will still remain in its broken state. There is nothing saving this world from its end.

Caring about those around you, isn't gonna make any difference. It hurts really, to know that everything I've done is equivalent to nothing. Oh how weak the human mind is, to forget the good that has been given to them. Same case with me, i suppose. By which is something I don't want anymore. I don't want to love anymore. I don't want to care anymore. I don't want to feel anymore. But instead of giving up on myself. I'm giving up on you and everyone else in this world.

I've tried my best to find a reason to life, a meaning for my existence, and I found none. There is nothing, and if I died now it'd be but a small tiny little speck of sadness within this already broken world, after a week and no one would care anymore. The human race has degraded itself to the point of no return, a point that would destroy everything. And with how everyone on earth is like right now, I've found no reason to be me anymore. Crawling my way back into my shell. I shall reform myself into a monster that feels nothing. I loved this world and everything in it, but it just isn't worth it.. I give up.