The Cycle

So its been a long time since I last posted.
Been extremely busy finishing up my final and the exhibition thingy.
but with all the time spent breaking my skull for ideas, it wasn't without its rewards.
I guess through experiences like this is when I realize how strong I can be individually.
Independent Design Practice, definitely thought me how to be more independent.
Although my final work was still lagging in areas, it was good enough for me.
I got to really connect with myself, reflect on the people around me.
and found out where my creativity lies.
I can just feel my soul slowly crawling its way back into the dark abyss,
Where all these imaginations were born in me..

When I was doing my final, i broke down.. alot of times.
unsure of what i'm living for, or what was the point of me finishing my studies.
or where my future lies, or if this would be my future.
reflecting on the friends I've made in this course.
and finally letting go of it all.
The past 2 years, I've lived my life as distant from people as I possibly can.
I'm not good at farewells, I'll just tell you goodbye or leave without saying a word.
I'm tired of thinking, talking, feeling..
Everything just feels so out of place for me..
Nothing ever goes the way it should,
how much simpler life would be if it did.

But upon finishing my final, I took refuge in the circle of friends.
But alas, through all the pain and depression I've went through the past 2 months.
I finally found myself. A person I once lost. A person I once was.
A person I've grown to become.

I choose Solitude.The endless joy of Isolation.
feel no more of the world around me.
numb is my heart that I choose nothing more.
nevermore. forevermore. nevermore.
I choose to forget and to be forgotten.
forevermore, evermore. nevermore.
living like a shadow in the night of spring.
I will be the one, the immortal one.
the one that will live forevermore.