Fragments of darkness

I seem to have found myself losing fragments of time..

Alas its the final week before the end of February.

It's as if the time flew by without me noticing.

I spent the CNY at my bro's new house, which was interesting to say the least.

But as usual being 11years of age apart makes my conversation with him feels stale..

I guess we just have different way of thinking, different way of life.

That aside, I quit-ed my semi-part-time-job..

due to having to start my internship in another company next month.

oh well, at least I received a bonus. aha!

I guess there isn't much for me to say really..

I've just been dragging on my life day by day,

and at this point in life, I'm stuck wondering what i'm doing..

and is the future I'm aiming for, the right future?

will it be fruitful? and would I be able to stick to it till the end without falter?

I'm losing time but there just isn't anything for me to put down..

Life has slowly becoming dull to me as I reach into the dark veil of adulthood.

It's the year I'll turn 21.. :\

- The Engulfing Darkness-

No.. I do not wish to grow old.

Not now.. I wanna be young,
I wanna be free, I wanna be eternal.

This world, I feel is not the world I've hoped to be in..

It has lost it's spark, it's marvel, it's reason to exist..

All the mysteries and wonders of the past are lost in a time long gone..

The future is now, the future is near..

and I dread it so..

Technology's advancement would ultimately be the end of the human race.

And as much as I know I would be part of the advancement..

I do not wish to be so..

I wish to live in a time.. a simpler time..
where all people wanted to do was to survive..

Not a materialized world where people no longer value life..

Not a world where people dont even have the decency or intellect to understand;

that once you're dead..
none of these material things and technology is gonna save you nor go with you into the afterlife.

The world now is no longer shrouded in darkness..

The world has already taken the darkness within them..

It's a time when people embrace the dark, the pain, the suffering..

A time when rebellions and physical war has no limits nor meaning.

Death would be at a rise and people just wont care..

A selfish world where everyone believe their own cause to be righteous..

A world engulfed in darkness, with no savior..

This is the future.. I'm imagined it, I've dreamed it.. I've seen it.

It is inevitable.. unavoidable..

and I am forced to play my part in it..

Oh to be able to see the ending days of the human species..

It's breathtaking.. and oh so.. depressing..

It's a future I do not wish to face..

I'd rather be living the dark ages of knights and crusades..

a time when people can actually choose their own sins.. their own fates.

and not be condemned along with the entire planet.

or in the time of 1800-1900s,

when the darkness was but in the emotions and dreaded souls of writers and poets.

And wars that shape the countries and nations to build the world we have today..

All those people in the past shaped the world into it's perfect state..

and all our generation does is condemned it and destroyed it..

with technology and greed..

It is clear that the darkness that was once unseen..
has made it's way to the souls of our race..

and now to the hearts and spirit of the world..

There's no longer any hope..

and I'm just forced to drag my life on.

on and on it goes...

and when the it stops.. everything stops..

I'll just have to make it on my own..

and hope the world sees it's error before its too late..

I'll end my rambling with the Sith Empire (star wars) teachings..

"Peace is a lie. There is only Passion.

Through Passion, I gain Strength.

Through Strength, I gain Power.

Through Power, I gain Victory.

And through Victory, My chains are broken."

I will defeat this dark demon.

even if the world is condemned for their sins.

I will arise victorious against this dark times.