Dreadful..

So~ I've been~ doing absolutely nothing productive lately!

lol.. ahhh~ I've sorta built walls the last couple of weeks o.O

Now I feel content with myself and the people around me.

I have completely removed all lingering emotions I have towards the people around me.

and now all their complaints and rantings about their lives just bore me.

Still trying to figure out what to do now tho..

Probably have to find a job soon.

October is still a long way to go... Stupid College, only holds graduation ceremonies end of year.. pfftt..

Worse! My result isn't out yet! and its been like a month+ 

Ohhh~~ I started Japanese classes. Yay~ 

Although I've never been good in any other language other than english~

I'mma trying my best to burst out all my focus on it~~~

-focus--- focus---~ hahax~ 

wheee~ Hope I can do well in it~ 

But for now~ my To-Do List is simple,

-Find A Job-

-Keep House Clean-

Learn to Drive? maybe..? hmm.. uhh

-Learn Japanese-

aha! that's pretty much it for now~

I'm probably gonna try to apply for some scholarship once i graduate..

but for now~ this is it~

after graduation~~ going to the big city~ KL~

and then I'll either work or study, or both.

and once I get a stable lifestyle~

hopefully by the age of 28~

I'd be able to~

a - Move to Japan

b - Buy my own House

c - Make it to the top of the design corporate ladder 

Mehh~ there's only so much I can plan at this given time :\

My heart still lingers with the thought of 'when' though..

I've been soo alone the past couple of days, I'ma probably gonna go CRAZIE soonnn!

i mean.. CRAZIERRR since I'm already crazy at some point o.O

bahh~ another year, another 5, another 10? another 20 perhaps..

guess I can wait it out.. 

suddenly 21 doesnt feel that old anymore..

Actually knowing that I can probably live another 40+ years.. 

makes me feel like I should end my life now really.

I mean 21~ woo~ damn! I need to live for another 40 years on this forsaken planet?! fml~

or something like that. AHA!

"To Live Is To Strive." As much as I hate to strive. Guess I gotta try..

It sucks to have to accept reality and grow up ((ESPECIALLY when I REALLY DONT WANNA~))

hmph... oh well~

guess that's all for now.

~PEACE AND LOVE ~

~Thanks for checking out my blog, readers~

~Sorreh! it hasnt been as colorful as it used to be~