Side effects

Wow~ been having such a busy week~

bro going back to KL tomorrow, and I wont be seeing him again till his wedding ceremony end of year.

mmhmm~

had japanese food for dinner yesterday (26th July) 

went to Sanga Japanese Restaurant.

it was.. not bad, but not as good as Tarot Salmon (at Boutique Hotel)

but it was still good enough for a japanese restaurant.

mehh~ my bro asked me what was my plan for the future.

and after telling him a bunch of random options thats been going through my mind,

he said that since my dream was always to goto Japan, i should just go for it.

I guess at some point he's right,

I shouldnt be held back by a past I can no longer see or a future that no longer exist for me.

I should just move on. & just... go for what I want.. ne?

that's it rite? that's what I'm suppose to do?

yet why do I feel so uneasy..

I feel like there's still so much I have to do before I leave.

yet I dont know what, or why, or how..

too many broken relationships and friendships lying around here.

Should they be mended before I leave, or should I completely shut my hometown out of my life completely?

cos' as everyone knows, I never liked my life here.

never had, never will. Even though I've had good experiences, the ones that sprout out the most are the bad.

I've had good days out with close friends who I hold dear before,

yet all I remember of them now are how we grew apart but not the things that made us friends in the first place.

Have I fallen to such a depth of negativity that I can no longer see the good things in life?

or have I matured and understand how to accept reality as it is?

at any rate, last time my plan was to go to Japan once I have enough money to.

My brother however, helped me planned it out to a point where
I'd be able to move and live in Japan by 2015 with a stable life.

He was always better at detailed planning than my target and go with the flow style. LOL.

But yeah, with the way things is going, I should be able to meet the target by 2015.

Is this wise though?

I need a day out with some of my close friends soon i guess.. :\

Alyn coming back next month so thats a great big plus. 

Since she's always been a direct go for your dreams type person.

She'd probably say that the Japan by 2015 plan is solid good~

while others might say I should pray for God's guidance.

mehh.. for now I'll just try my best to hit the target I guess.
I'm feeling better after conveying my feelings here.

Anyway~

Today bought 2 new shirts. Dark Maroon and Dark brown.

for my bro's wedding dinner end of year. lol

Justin Timberlake styled shirts :|

ohh~ and 2 new pairs of awesome shoes :3 mmmm~

and now I'm halfway broke.. great.. :( 

but I guess its all good~

I might need those shirts in the future anyway.

aha..

Oh well~