I'm what I've overcome

So its already the Thursday, my semester ends tomorrow (Friday). Yessss~
Cant wait for holidays..

Uhmm so I went for the tuition teaching on tues.
LOL only had 2 students mmhmm..
Its fun in its own sense. but its a little weird.
Knowing that the students are well, about 3 - 7 years younger than me only :\
But anyway its a good experience..
Tho, seeing the level of english of secondary students nowadays.
Its kinda.... uhmm unnatural.
Its like I completely don't understand what teachers are teaching their students in school nowadays.
Its fun in its own way. Abit stressful when seeing their standard.
I mean seriously, how can you improve a person's language...
It improves from daily activities, the more u do it, the more you understand it.
So i just gave them a short essay and some objective questions to do on the first day.
Communication ain't bad, i mean at least they ask whatever they don't understand.
But, I've been thinking after that lesson that maybe I'm not cut out for the job. ahaha!
I've never been that great of a teacher.
I mean the only thing I taught someone that ended up being a success was drawing ._.
English is like.. uhhh kind of hard to teach.
That and being called "老师" sends chills down my spine. LOL!
I'm not that old! :( ahahaha!
Uhh yeahh.. I'll probably stick to it for about a month and see how it goes first. :)

In other news, today is the animation presentation!
COMPLETELY UNSURE OF MY GROUP'S PROCESS ON THE ASSIGNMENT.
Hope its finished on time. our all of us is dead.
I really don't understand why must it be group work :(
I mean if it was for report i understand, but for designs is a bit weird.
Considering the fact that everyone has their own way of designing their stuff.
There will be disagreement and consequences.
In group sometimes its hard for people actually learn for themselves,
instead lead them into the way of shoving their work to one of the group members.
I just really don't understand it.. but whatever.
Just hope it can be finished on time.
I don't care about it anymore.

ahhhhhhhh... so i guess you'd probably already know that I'm not feeling well lately.
I mean you can completely tell, from my previous blog post. ahaha
At some point, I feel like I could just go on top the highest mountain in kuching and jump off it.
Feeling the cool breeze, the fast altitude drop that makes it hard to breath and the ears to bleed, and just feel alive at that final moment before it all ends. :\

ahahaha! freakin negative eh? yeahhh...
Maybe I'd get a job as a Shinigami too :) that might be fun. lol~
I dont even know what i'm saying anymore. I'm just soo unstable lately.
I need a day to just completely breakdown into nothingness.
and find myself again the following days.
Like a snake shedding its skin after completing its digestion of its food.
I need the holidays to come... ASAP..
One more day to go... then I'd be able to just completely fall to pieces. :)

:) thats all i have to update. thanks for reading.



Fireflight - What I've Overcome..
This use to be my fav song of all time :) by one of my top fav Chiristan Rock Band.

If only you could see me yesterday, Who I used to be before the change.
You'd see a broken heart, You'd see the battle scars...
Funny how words can't explain, How good it finally feels to break the chains..
I'm not what I have done, I'm what I've overcome!