Wednesday, June 13, 2012

I'm Suffocating

I'm my own worse enemy~

I'm feeling horrible :\ worse than horrible in fact.
ahahaha.. I feel alone.. oh soo alone..

Yes, I'm alone by choice.
I don't want to get hurt anymore..
Its a decision I've made cos' I've been hurt by people enough this year.
I know its just half the year, but I've been hurt wayy too much already.
and no one even cares much anyway.
Those that do care are too far away from me to help.

Gawd, I cant wait to leave this heartless place behind ... :\
I've GIVEN UP... cos there's nothing left for me..
Right now my life is like extremely emotional.
I feel like jumping off a cliff the moment I find a cliff that's high enough to kill me.
Hmm.. I remember I use to be emotional like this..
Its been a long time .__.
And now I've come right around in a full circle back to point 1 of emotionality.
I gotta say, it bites just as much as it did 7years ago.

I've taken a chance in a more positive life, lived my life in a slightly brighter light.
Crawling in the grey area.. but after everything..
I feel the way I felt back then, people are overrated, all they do is hurt, cheat, leave, lie.
As if it means anything in the end.. what happens at the end of their life?
regret? perhaps disappointment or self-hatred? whatever the case...
I've clawed my way back into the embrace of darkness..
For how long will I stay? I do not know..
But if I can make it through these dark days by the time of opportunity,
I'm sure things will get better... probably..

But if things were to get worse before then...
I dare not think of it... :|

Shadows has overtaken me...

I just want to shut my eyes and drift away...



Shut your eyes and think of somewhere
Somewhere cold and caked in snow
By the fire we break the quiet
Learn to wear each other well

And when the worrying starts to hurt
and the world feels like graves of dirt
Just close your eyes until
you can imagine this place, yeah, our secret space at will

Shut your eyes, I spin the big chair
And you'll feel dizzy, light, and free
And falling gently on the cushion
You can come and sing to me

And when the worrying starts to hurt
and the world feels like graves of dirt
Just close your eyes until
you can imagine this place, yeah, our secret space at will

(Shut your eyes [x4])

Shut your eyes and sing to me (Shut your eyes and sing to me) [x4]

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