Conflicted

ahahaha! I finally have a job~
a simple job, with simple pay.. okay.

But.. i prefer doing this, then anything direct selling .__.

So... I havent done much the past few days..
Been dying from searching online for a good multimedia project that I can do for my final assignment.. But it's harder than anticipated.. its crazy hard to find any good yet easy design..

Mood:
~STRESSED~

ahh.. sighhh~
Today I had an emotional breakdown.
Been a longgg time since I had one..

not sure if its overstressed or due to this conflicted emotions..
I guess at some point,
there's a piece of my heart somewhere that still cares for her.

Its like how~
even if u bury the feelings they still find someway to crawl their way back out of the heart somehow. and yes it's as gross as it sounds.
AHAHA~ But then.. I figured it out..
And I even found a song that resembled my conclusion.

And the lyrics that speaks was..

"When you said it's over, I lost my head! And now that we're older I'm giving up on being right, So I can see the other side of you!"

And that would be the grown up version of her, that at some point I admire.
Over the year she's really grown up.
And that's just amazing :)


And I'm starting to feel that maybe this semester wont be that bad. hopefully.


Hmm...
Sometimes I wonder if blogging is a good idea... writing out every emotion to every ups and every downs.. But i love writing.. so who cares~ and besides~ at least this way, when I grow old & die. At least there's still be a story of my life here online :)
Sorta like "The Notebook" :D

Anyway~

So here's my new theme song;

"To Be Loved" - "Train"




Finally met Virginia on a slow summer night
Thought I should forgive ya so I came back
You're a sight for sore eyes
Right for those lies
They saved me after all!

Right from the beginning we were wrong I found
But no one did it better baby pound for pound
Those heavyweight fights were right for me
To learn how to see the light clearly
And it's the light I see in you!

No, don't go
I'll show you what it's like to be loved!
No, don't go
I'll show you what it's like to be loved!
(ba-da-da-da-da-da-da-da)
What it's like to be loved!
(ba-da-da-da-da-da-da-da)

Now that things are better for me
I can laugh at all your other lovers
When you do the math
Does it make you feel sad,
Make you feel small?
Thank God it ain't about me anymore!

I'm not coming back for round two
I just wanna love you like a friend would do
You were wrong for the feelings you had
But the man that I was isn't coming back
So stay, it's OK!

No, don't go
I'll show you what it's like to be loved!
No, don't go
I'll show you what it's like to be loved!
(ba-da-da-da-da-da-da-da)
What it's like to be loved!
(ba-da-da-da-da-da-da-da)

When you said it's over
I lost my head!
And now that we're older
I'm giving up on being right
So I can see the other side of you!

No, don't go
I'll show you what it's like to be loved!
No, don't go
I'll show you what it's like to be loved!
(ba-da-da-da-da-da-da-da)
when you said it's over
What is like to be loved!
(ba-da-da-da-da-da-da-da)
I lost my head!
What it's like to be loved!
(ba-da-da-da-da-da-da-da)
And now that we're older
What it's like, what it's like to be loved!