Conflicted

ahahaha! I finally have a job~
a simple job, with simple pay.. okay.

But.. i prefer doing this, then anything direct selling .__.

So... I havent done much the past few days..
Been dying from searching online for a good multimedia project that I can do for my final assignment.. But it's harder than anticipated.. its crazy hard to find any good yet easy design..

Mood:
~STRESSED~

ahh.. sighhh~
Today I had an emotional breakdown.
Been a longgg time since I had one..

not sure if its overstressed or due to this conflicted emotions..
I guess at some point,
there's a piece of my heart somewhere that still cares for her.

Its like how~
even if u bury the feelings they still find someway to crawl their way back out of the heart somehow. and yes it's as gross as it sounds.
AHAHA~ But then.. I figured it out..
And I even found a song that resembled my conclusion.

And the lyrics that speaks was..

"When you said it's over, I lost my head! And now that we're older I'm giving up on being right, So I can see the other side of you!"

And that would be the grown up version of her, that at some point I admire.
Over the year she's really grown up.
And that's just amazing :)


And I'm starting to feel that maybe this semester wont be that bad. hopefully.


Hmm...
Sometimes I wonder if blogging is a good idea... writing out every emotion to every ups and every downs.. But i love writing.. so who cares~ and besides~ at least this way, when I grow old & die. At least there's still be a story of my life here online :)
Sorta like "The Notebook" :D

Anyway~

So here's my new theme song;

"To Be Loved" - "Train"




Finally met Virginia on a slow summer night
Thought I should forgive ya so I came back
You're a sight for sore eyes
Right for those lies
They saved me after all!

Right from the beginning we were wrong I found
But no one did it better baby pound for pound
Those heavyweight fights were right for me
To learn how to see the light clearly
And it's the light I see in you!

No, don't go
I'll show you what it's like to be loved!
No, don't go
I'll show you what it's like to be loved!
(ba-da-da-da-da-da-da-da)
What it's like to be loved!
(ba-da-da-da-da-da-da-da)

Now that things are better for me
I can laugh at all your other lovers
When you do the math
Does it make you feel sad,
Make you feel small?
Thank God it ain't about me anymore!

I'm not coming back for round two
I just wanna love you like a friend would do
You were wrong for the feelings you had
But the man that I was isn't coming back
So stay, it's OK!

No, don't go
I'll show you what it's like to be loved!
No, don't go
I'll show you what it's like to be loved!
(ba-da-da-da-da-da-da-da)
What it's like to be loved!
(ba-da-da-da-da-da-da-da)

When you said it's over
I lost my head!
And now that we're older
I'm giving up on being right
So I can see the other side of you!

No, don't go
I'll show you what it's like to be loved!
No, don't go
I'll show you what it's like to be loved!
(ba-da-da-da-da-da-da-da)
when you said it's over
What is like to be loved!
(ba-da-da-da-da-da-da-da)
I lost my head!
What it's like to be loved!
(ba-da-da-da-da-da-da-da)
And now that we're older
What it's like, what it's like to be loved!

Yeah This Is Living But Without The Will.

Anyway first off, I got ric's Hard-disk,
got a bunch of new games to play n movies to watch...
If I have the time.. since I'm having my final project this semester.. sighh


Thursday was the first class of the final project.
Felt soo stress hearing about it..
need to use soo many programs,
soo many codes, soo much work.. ARGH!
and I still have no idea what to make yet!
Completely blank ...!




Yesterday was a public holiday..
i spent it doing research and playing a horror game.
yeahh.. playing a horror game on Chinese Ghost Independence Day Festival. HAH!
Then I got a headache n went to sleep.. Ahaha


& Today.. SATURDAY was my first Bahasa Kebangsaan class.. ARGH!
Surprisingly everyone in the class had the same level of Bahasa Malaysia as me! :D

BM Level: 0 ..

Which is good.. since its like.. oh good everyones a noobie not just me. :D
tho, i could tell that the lecturer was more stress. ahahaha
Our first work was to write an 350 word essay on..
"Tentang Diri Saya" (about myself)
boring, annoying, and everyone wrote it like.. a primary school student.
Yay~ No idea how i'm gonna pass this subject in the future exam. zz



In the afternoon..
It was quite interesting actually.


u know that awkward moment when uhmm..
You havent seen a person in a long time and they're studying to be a future teacher, then meet up watching an adult comedy (The Watch)


uhh yeahhhh.. AHAHAHA..

Long story short =
I had a date with the devil who surprisingly turned human over a year+


We didn't do much.. but it was nice really.. in a way.. i guess. :X

.
..
...
..
.

AHAHAHA! its like...

"We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time" - The Script


and.. I guess its good.. since I havent been out in a while..
( was stuck in a cave for one whole semester..!!! )

and it did get my mind off some things.. so.. THANKS :)


Hopefully we'd have the chance to go out again before I disappear... hmm..

Oh & This song is for you :D
tho.. i'm not sure if u'd changed ur taste in music d or wat.. :|


Lost in Paradise - Evanescence





I've been believing in something so distant
As if I was human
And I've been denying this feeling of hopelessness
In me, in me

All the promises I made
Just to let you down
You believed in me, but I'm broken

I have nothing left
And all I feel is this cruel wanting

We've been falling for all this time
And now I'm lost in paradise

As much as I'd like the past not to exist
It still does
And as much as I'd like to feel like I belong here
I'm just as scared as you

I have nothing left
And all I feel is this cruel wanting

We've been falling for all this time
And now I'm lost in paradise

Run away, run away
One day we won't feel this pain anymore

Take it all away
Shadows of you
Cause they won't let me go

Until I have nothing left
And all I feel is this cruel wanting

We've been falling for all this time
And now I'm lost in paradise

Alone, and lost in paradise




P.S/
The tomato mee shop u said last time we ate at, is around Jalan Kapor area. But i cant remember the shop name. LOL XD

yawn~

~I dont need a reason, she is just special~

So I havent been blogging in a long time.. ahahax!
Its been a fun couple of weeks. :) learned lots of stuff in class.
and also watched tons of animes and movies O_O
so this post is just about those stuff xD

errmmm~ lets start with the animes then! Finished. Level E, Steins;Gate, Usagi Drop, Darker Than Black, No.6 :) Level EWell, this was an interesting and fun anime to watch :) Its about aliens! and its a comedy! rofl! I dont know how to comment on this anime really. its just really funny! and the concept is all good. even the storylines are good! personally I liked it~ so it gets a 7/10 :) Summary u can look it up yourself xD



Steins;Gate This anime started airing early this year and ended about 2 weeks ago Its really nice, i love how the story developed from the start to end. and how it was confusing in the start and everything falls together at the end. and it had a sweet ending. :) A very good sci-fi anime that can get your brain spinning. 8/10


Usagi Drop This anime is just... wow.. :) its sweet cute and fun to watch. Its a lifestyle anime, so there isnt any action and very little drama. its just really realistic.. I guess its probably more suitable for young adults to watch than teens and children. But overall its still really sweet... :) To watch a story about how a man who has never taken care of anyone but himself. Changed his whole lifestyle for a child. is just really sweet. 9/10



No.6 This... last time i posted and gave it a rating at 8.9/10 but now, after watching the last episode. I feel soo cheated. the whole awesome storyline and layout from the start. Just dissolve into something lame... so I was disappointed about the ending.. New rating; 6/10



Darker Than Black So this is a rather old anime.. :) Heard of it, but never watched it and forgot about it. Then someone sweet reminded me of it. so i watched it. its good... :) I love the main character. ahahax and the storyline is great. hmm hmm~ I give it a 8/10 :)


So other than that, I've also been watching a drama and movies!
uhmm I watched, The Warrior's Way & Mr.Popper's Penguins
and for drama I started and almost finished; Zettai Kareshi


The Warrior's Way(2010)
This movie released December last year.
The trailer looked epic, and the fact that its Produced by the people who made Lord Of The Rings. made it seem like must-watch.
And now i'm glad I didnt watch it in the cinema.
the storyline is just very lame and suckish..
The fighting was okay, the characters could have been better.
and overall it just screams; LAMEEEE!
But then the overall rating I give it 6.5/10
only cos it had very dramatic fighting scenes -__-!



Mr.Popper's Penguins (2011)
Well this is nice~ rofl!
okay. everybody knows Jim Carey, and how every comedy he made is always nice.
cos he's just a great actor :) plus all the movies he acted in had the sympathic element in it.
To make viewers feel sorry for him :) Its always nice to feel connected to the main character.
So.. yeah! its a nice movie. and it had dancing penguins.
thats cute! rofl!
So uhh~ yeah! 8.7/10 :)



Lastly we have a Japanese-Drama
I always prefer Japanese Drama to Korean Drama..
Why? well to me, Japanese drama has better meanings and is more serious and less dramatic.
So it wont make u cry as much as a korean drama does, but it makes more sense.
even one with a robot made specifically to be the ideal boyfriend.


Zettai Kareshi (Absolute Boyfriend)

so the original was a love manga of the same name..
yesh! those romance manga girls love to read;

And everybody knows guys dont read stuff like that.
still for me, i love to watch romance dramas, teehee~
weather its in anime form or human form, its always good.
and this is one of those great series :)
I love it. and also I found myself a new idol.. rofl!
yeahhh :) he's one of the main character in the story.
So anyway! this story is about a robot made to love and is given to a girl whose desperate for love. and all the silly things in between before a happy ending.
Simple romance concept~
and the storyline is actually really good~
so me gives it a 8.9/10



I'm almost finish tho. so after i finish with this drama, I'ma move on to;
Otomen (drama not the romance manga)


another romance drama based on romance manga :)
and then I'd watch Paradise Kiss.
also a manga-based romance drama

while also watching a classic anime;
Code Geass
shared to me by that sweet sweet someone who reintro-ed me to darker than black


and that's pretty much it :) Peace And Love!

The Setting Moon

"Once In A Blue Moon..."


WELL! Raya Holidays are finally over!
Alright! so what did I do during my raya break?
well like the previous post i did last week,
I watched Movies!

After watching "I Give You My First Love"
I watched;
"Cello" (Korean Horror) and "Venus and Mars" (Korean Romantic Comedy)
I'll review these movies below.
Thats what I did on Monday.
Tuesday and Wednesday I just basically watch and finished a 50episode anime;
Mobile Suit Zeta Gundam. Its a classic anime. ahahax!
will review it later on in this post as well :)
Thursday was just boring, all I did was eat, sleep, gaming, facebook. x__X!
Played back an old game too! "Arcanum".

Uhh hmmm~ Nothing much happened on friday either. :(
Found out a bunch of stuff about Taylor Swift on the Youtube Presents :)
ahahax! uhmm hmmm~ found a bunch of awesome bands and singers on saturday.
Also bought my Palace Athene on saturday morning.
Night went to church and came back finished building my Palace Athene.
And slept.
Sunday!!!
Sunday was a special day; went to watch SMURF! ahahax. ikr? me? watch smurf? wth?
gonna write about it all the way at the end of this post :)
so lets move on to MOVIES! XD



!~MOVIES~!

CELLO
First, I'd like to say that... THIS IS NOT A GOOD HORROR MOVIE.
its no wonder korean horror is less famous.. ahahax
Its basically about this girl who plays the cello, and got jealous of a better musician, she killed her. and that ghost is now seeking revenge on the killer.
o__o! yeah.. its kinda lame... and its not as scary as some movies.
so honestly, i rate this movie at 4.5/10
yes, thats how bad it was for me.. ahahax. but dont let me stop you,
if you wanna watch asian horror movies, by all means, check it out.

Venus And Mars
This movie, I give a huge thumbs up!
Its an awesome Romantic Comedy, its even better than the classic
"My Sassy Girl"
and its at that level of movie style. funny and still sweet. :)
Its one of those movies where couples watch and joke about and enjoys.
Also individually its a good comedy with good enough storyline.

So I give this movie a 9/10!
A MUST watch for people who loves the Asian romantic-comedy genre




THE SMURFS
Honestly I dont know how I ended up watching this.
oh well! I mean its not that i dont like cute things. its just that, it feels like a waste of money to watch cartoons in a cineplex T_T my money! D:
ahahax! but still it was a fun day :)
So overall its like well not that bad, i mean its a cartoon. LOL!
It has enough funny parts to make it entertaining.
And of course the ever-so-addictive Smurf's song will get stuck in your head after leaving the hall~ LaLa LaLaLaLa Sing A Happy Song~
Ahahax! overall its quite okaye :) but I cant say much, i mean its a classic! XD 8/10 teeheeheee~ oh! i loved the evil wizard's cat in this movie! Azrael!

!~OTAKU/Gunpla (anything japanese/anime really)~!

Mobile Suit Zeta Gundam this is the 2nd Gundam anime that was ever released :) So looking back at a classic 80s anime like this, really shows how much animation has evovled okay, so this story takes place 8 years about the 1st series. And well I'd just like to say that my fav character in the first series (altho i din watch it) is still my fav character in the second series.
Char Aznable


Honestly to me he's the best thought-out character in the whole series,
without him the storyline would probably just sux. ahahax!
so yeahhh~ I mean its a classic anime! and its honestly really realistic how 30years ago the creators, could think and create stories about technology we actually do use today.
:) so its really cool that their idea was really down to earth back then. ahahx!
so yeah! I like this anime, compared to the shitty Gundam animes that are being released now, This is probably the only gundam series i like and finished.
Also! in this anime has the mobile suit

Palace Athene

This is the model kit i just bought on saturday,
and its a Rare model kit. means that BANDAI the company that makes these models
. Might not even be producing anymore of this model.

Which is rather sad, but then thinking it through and if thats the case.
This model might be worth a whole lot in the future to those crazy collectors +_+!
then i'd be earning alot. ahahax!


so yeah! The Palace Athene is a tall mobile suit with claws and huge guns and 2 sabers.
In the anime it was made by the Jupitoris group.
Piloted by Reccoa Londe and just basically looks cool.



NEXT!
Steins;Gate

I just started watching this anime,
And i gotta say that i'm loving it!
Its a new anime that just started this year.
Storyline is about; this craze person who thinks himself a mad scientist likes to make gadgets and stuff. with the help of his super hacker buddy; ahahax.
but ultimately they actually created a gateway with a phone and microwave,
that allows them to send text messages to the past.
Thus starts the anime~ :)
Its really unique and crazie, but i love it!
Psychological Animes for the win!
and that will be all on animes.



!~Songs And Music~!
So.. The other day Jin asked me to find her new or unique songs;
cos she was bored of all the music lately.

And thus I dig out a bunch of Independent bands out.
First up we have;

Stereo Skyline
They have this cute song called Tongue Tied;
that is totally awesome, check them out, they're quite good tho I still prefer Marianas Trench and/or NeverShoutNever than this group, but Stereo Skyline is still worth checking out :)


I also gave her songs from Poema, and of course; she loved them.
I think any gal would love them really. ahahax Poema is just soo awesome :)
MY FAVORITE SONG BY THEM IS: "Feel The Same Way"

Then also have a more rock-styled group called We Are The In Crowd.
Which have this Paramore-like feel in their music. which is quite nice too :)
MY FAVORITE SONG BY THEM IS: "Both Sides Of The Story"

Another weird group I found is The CreepShow,
they're really classic style, music style reminds me alot of Panic! At The Disco.
MY FAVORITE SONG BY THEM IS: "Creature Of The Night"

With all this Indie (Independent) music style; who needs hiphop?! ROFL
So my current playlist consists of mainly;

Marianas Trench, He Is We, Cady Groves, Poema, Stereo Skyline, Never Shout Never, The Downtown Fiction, The Script, Train, The Fray and Snow Patrol.



Youtube Presents TAYLOR SWIFT

2 weeks ago, Taylor posted a video of herself on youtube; allowing viewers from youtube and google to ask her questions via youtube; and also allows viewers to vote on the questions they wanted Taylor Swift to answer. last week on the 31st Aug; Youtube Presents Taylor Swift; and asked taylor swift the top rated questions during the interview;
So i learnt that; she likes to watch Crime series when she's free; CSI and all that o__o! she also likes to read History books.
She DOES sing her own songs in the shower and if she has an idea in the middle of the night while she's asleep and woken up by the inspiration, she'd record herself mumbling the lyrics into her phone. and thats how she capture those moments in order to create her songs... how..... nice.. lol! :) There were of course more questions. but those are the main ones i remember, you can check out the 40+ mins youtube present video on Youtube.com/taylorswift

!~GAMES~!
Thats all for music;
Next up we have the game I've been playing;
On my desktop I've been playing The Sims Medieval;
As compared to the other sims games this is better as it gives you quests and also a Kingdom to take care of rather then just a family of sims.
So personally I feel that anyone who likes The Sims should check this out;
along with its expansion PIRATES; Cos it really brings The Sims to a more Roleplaying level
with more things to do and actually having a story, makes it all better.

That aside;
I have installed a classic game into my lappy;

Arcanum: Of Steamworks And Magick Obscura


Its a game that brings players to a time similar to the 18th century,
Where technologies have just started advancing,
when people started using guns and all that; but at the same time its a fantasy world,
where magic and orcs, trolls, dwarfs, elves exist :)
so its really cool; ahahax and yes thats how boring my holidays was! T_T




----------BLOGGING---------

Thats that!
Now what exactly did i do on sunday?
well i had to go out in the afternoon; so i went to morning church service.

It was okay.. I was half asleep tho :\ sigh!
uhmm after that went to buy a new pair of jeans, ate at sugar bun.
and went to spring to meet my twin~ along with her friends. :)
then eric joined us. ahahx!
yeah~ :\ well i dunno waht to say really.
It was kinda awkward really.
but then it was still strangely fun :\
mehhh! XD we went to watch the smurfs at MBO.
it was nice. :) and then we walked around spring blah blah blah;
ahahax! It was just a nice day larh~ :)
I mean as compared to anything else I did during the raya week. it was nice.
and i found something out!...
ehehe! but i'm not saying it here :|
mehh! gahh rawr woof meow;
LaLa LaLaLaLa Sing A Happy Song~ Smurfs!
uhmm~ yeahhh...
Hopefully next time we hang out it wouldnt be as awkward? mehh~
ggrrr~~ ahahax xD
They're all a great group of people; so i dont regret going out.
uhh uhh~ yeahhh :| mehh~ hmm~
ahahahax! lame blog post i know.
But i just dunno how to put things into words..
...
Tongue-Tied
...

Byeh Readers! :D
Love And Peace To All!

.YOU HAVE SERIOUSLY STOLEN MY HEART.
But I Assure you! When The Time Comes! I'll Knock You Off Your Feet~ :)