Freed

It's been awhile since my last post.

With my decisions made for leaving my hometown, I'm both excited and frightened.

To be able to leave this place is a blessing on its own.

But a saddening feeling has started to creep up to me these past few days.

To leave behind some of my closest friends may be harder than I expected.

Last week 06/06 was my birthday.

I was able to call out a gathering between my closest friends;

including XY, my bestie from high school.

To be able to meet her after such a long period of no-contact.

I definitely felt blissful to be able to see her again.

That feeling you get, when you haven't seen your best friend in a long long time,

but still are able to talk like nothing's changed.. That Feeling is Amazing. 

Words cant even begin to express my gratefulness of having someone like her in my life.

For a long time, I was lost as I wasn't sure what I wanted out of life, 

as if I'm a walking corpse forced to live my life in dread.
then I made this random decision that I want to leave.
to fully leave behind all these 

But that day, on my 22nd b-day.

I got to spend my dinner time with;

Feng : my gaming/hobby/anime buddy, whose always supportive.

Ric : the simple guy who's always been a great listener.

XY : my bf ever since high school, our friendship was never simple but all the complications often seem to disappear when we meet up or talked. It's just one of those miraculous thing that happens when you find that one person you can fully open up to.

& Amelia : Eric's sister whom, I do not know very well, but is a kind-hearted soul. and at most times very similar to her lil brother :)

Twas a small but precious gathering~ 

we had a nice dinner at 'Oishi', although it wasn't the besttt Japanese food ever, it was good enough. Aha.

Shared a chocolate cheesecake with everybody, and went on to have milk tea as we chatted about random stuff for what seems like a long time.

It was simple but it was precious. A memory I would cherish for a very long time.

Similarly, today went out with them for a romantic comedy movie "Blended",

A fun and funny movie that had everybody laughing.

A long time ago, I've tried my best to avoid romance flicks. 'cos it often reminded me of the past,

and more often, pokes the wounds on my heart everytime a lovey dovey part appears.

For a long time that feeling of loneliness had haunted me. 

But today, it would appear that I've overcame it, to have my friends beside me is truly a blessing.

Although it pains me to leave them here while I'm going away for further studies.

And there's a high probability that I may never come back.

I'm grateful to those who are here with me now. 

The ones I leave behind. The ones I'll never forget. The ones I'll come back for.

To be able to hangout with XY made me happy, but not only because it's been a long time,

But also because I got to see how strong she's become. 

To see her purest smile and sweetest laugh and weirdest responses~

It shows how much she've grown over the years. & I'm happy for her. 

Which is why although it saddens me to have to leave the company of such great people.

I'm honored to be considered the friends / close-friends / best-friends.

And I believe there's more this world could offer me. 

More than this. more than everything I have now.

It is not lust or greed that I sought to leave and find something more or greater.

But because of faith, Faith and Hope that allows me to dream;

to believe that I can do more, be more..

to believe that if I stumble and fall and crumble to pieces, that I might find comfort in these people whom I truly adore.

to believe that there's far greater things to come for me, and for them..

to believe that not time nor distance can break our bonds.

and to know that...

I love all my friends, truly i do.

I also love all my enemies, ex-s, haters and acquaintances.

For each individual that I've met in my life, has brought me to be who/what I am today.

I can finally say, that I'm free and I shall soar the skies.. where I'm meant to be.

And with all my heart I pray & hope that these bonds I've made,
would survive the passage of time and remain eternally beautiful.