Sleepless nights

"I want so much to open your eyes, 'Cos I need you to look into mine"
- Snow Patrol

Ahh soo the 3v3 League Of Legends competition on saturday was a bust,
lost at the first round to the group that got 2nd place in the end..
mmhmm.. bad luck i guess.

This was the scoreboard:
http://challonge.com/loltttgizmo2012

My team name was ForFun, Cos' that was t. :( he main reason we joined..
Experience..

The 5v5 competition still hasn't been confirm yet, I hope it happens...
but then its on my class field trip day.sad case..
But then I'm not in the mood to go anyway... eheh..

Anyway...
lately I havent been sleeping well..
ahaha.. I dunno what's wrong really, thinking too much i guess.
I had a nightmare 2days ago..
It was like a horror movie.. ahaha...
Of how people you see everyday may not be people at all.
But a specter a spirit.. an unrest..
And every night when the moon is full these spirits whispers their deepest thoughts to the ones closest to them.. whether good or bad they are there..
In my dreams there were,
people were saying that during the days they slumber they sleep inside the trees..

So thats a freaky thought.. How trees are actually haunted spirits.... heh..
And how late in the night they speak to selected people in silence..
The death of many was caused by these whispers of the dead..

And it's shown me how abnormal I am to have weird dreams like these :\ ..
"Somewhere between dream and reality.. I lost myself."

Last night I had another dream.. It was more on world balance though..
It was like saying you will always gain if u lose something in return.
It wasn't really a dream or a nightmare is like my inner thoughts were just battling each other.
ahaha.. I wasn't even sure if I was asleep or thinking out loud.. hmm

I guess... her passing had a big impact on me... sigh..
I dont even know how to recover from this...
I mean... Its just hard.. :\
And no matter how i look at it.. I just dont know how to get over it..
However, these emotions that's been eating me the last few days have produced an artwork of pure..... loneliness?


A Love Lost
Pieces Of A Broken Heart (picture 1)

The numbers actually represents the number of lost lovers.. i think?
The comb is a symbol of unity, you know its the way how Asian use to propose to their beloved.
The broken leaf shape thingy is a shard of a broken heart.
The stars represents unreachable dreams and the sea pretty much means loneliness...
ahaha.. it's not a happy picture at all.. :(
I'm not happy at all... sigh..


Tell me that you'll open your eyes .... :(