Monday, January 3, 2011

I let go..

Knowledge is power! - Pastor Kong Hee
I know alotttt of people use that quote, but i like Pastor Kong's one. LOL!
Cos having Knowledge you obtain understanding, and from understanding you obtain wisdom.
and all that adds up to Intelligence :D

It took awhile, but theres improvement. :)
I finally understand why things happen the way it did.
hah! I found knowledge in the bible! and gotten my understanding!
Wisdom uhhh not that i can think of for now.. anyway!
So everything happened to me..
So i can actually finally accept myself and grow up and let go and forgive and well you get the picture..
Although It was a painful week~
It doesnt hurt as much anymore.
I think i finally accept it. :D
There are things I regret, and thank you-s I cannot say.
I pray for God bless those that I wish to thank!!! :) *say amen!*
Its a longgggg way to go for me to change my life.
But it's a new year, and since all things are possible.
i guess, Even someone as Emotional as I can find my right path.
I believe in it! Cos I ROCK! rofl! :) and I will endure it~ ♥
Whatever the future holds, I will hold onto God to lead me through it.
I still have my desires of course, so I'll always pray on those to be part of my future too.
For now, only time will clear my blurred future~
(unless i get some vision or dream tonight @.@)
I HAVE FOUND MY PEACE! yay! :')
And I still can become stronger, I guess time alone isnt that bad.
Especially when i spend it conquering my past and fears, and building myself up.

1 Peter 2: 4-5
" 4 As you come to him, the living Stone—rejected by humans but chosen by God and precious to him— 5 you also, like living stones, are being built into a spiritual house"

Thats for the line i used earlier; Building myself up.
:D like living stones
Anyway..

"What doesnt kill us makes us stronger."
I was the one who was wrong, and i blamed others along with my past..
I just really hope the wrongs i did would someday be forgiven.
I know God forgives me :) but i feel guilty about those I have wronged.
Or maybe~ someday i can find the strength to fix it myself.
Yeah, I should. to connect the gaps in the relations I've destroyed.
Ah well, thats for another time.
Gotta improve myself first.
Next week college starts. :) cant wait..
church saturday!~ cant wait!
and the rest of the week~
I'll hold myself out :) and improveeee more ♥
and i think i'm gonna take up guitar lessons soon too~

I'm not happy i lost her due to my choice in the (bad) emotional path.
But it was what she did that made me strong. So like the bible said;
"I will bless those who blesses you."
And I hope you'll be bless abundantly.









You will never know how great of a gift you have given me.:')
.I.really.wish.i.could.thank.you.somehow.

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