Lovable Week

So the entire week has been quite fun ahahax xD

Uhmm lets see.... well din do much on monday cept the usual gaming wit my buddies..
But tuesday jing asked me out to hangout.
Turned out Soon came back from Johor.
LOL! went to his shophouse ground floor luan~
ahahax! actually we just sat around and chat..
Seems like Johor life damn fun lor~ But then still as boring as here.
Ahahax he talked about his classes etc. etc.
mehh~ then night as always chat and gaming wit the gang..
hmmm~~

Wednesday!
Night~ went out wit the jing, feng, ric, junyong and soon xD
for well dinner. :\ ahahx.
then ride around town waste time. went spring, to saberkas.
all the back to Jing's house.
Saw his masterpiece!

~DESTINY (MG)~

Its huge in size. and tho i still prefer all the monoeyed mobile suits (like my Super Custom Zaku F2000) This one looks quite epic, ahahx in fact it makes me wanna buy an MG for myself too~ Just that at this moment, there isnt any stock of the one i want. awww~

That said! ahahax
jing borrowed Persona3 to play on his PS2 emulator on his computer. Lame~~ but then he loved the game (just like everyone else who ever played it did) Persona3 is an anime styled game, done by company; Shin Megami Tensei. Who was the company responsible for famous games like Nocturne, Digital Devil Sage, Devil Summoner and Persona. The game series is not connected, so starting on any of it is fine. The game is damn fun. and the monsters/summons are based off the Tarot Cards Arcana. Each with its own attributes, strength and weaknesses. ahahax~ also Persona4 the game has been such a hit, that they actually.. Created the animation series for it last month :) Proves how epic the game is. Check it out!
Persona3 & Persona4. Best PS2 game of year 2006 & 2007.

So anyway! watched him play that while we toyed with his well.. Destiny. :S LOL! we actually ride around town for quite some time before going his house, cos after that, I reached home at almost 1 xD ahahax then we met online to game awhile. before doing our own stuff..

Thursday! chatted with jing about school stuff, blah blah blah.
Gamed awhile. went out with him,
chatted about camera, school stuff, exam, games, blah blah blah. bought some stuff. went to eat awhile, then came home. nothing much really.

Friday~!
Nothing much too! just stayed at home bored :S tried to study but failed. LOL!

Saturday~!
IT WAS MAY'S (Ms.Chong) BIRTHDAY! ahahax.
Altho i dont know her well. she's a GD senior, and very awesome. ahahax :)
I wasnt able to get her a gift, actually I was only able to give her a facebook bday greeting :S
So, I felt kinda bad. :\ I thought I'd make another public birthday wish here!

♥ !~HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS.CHONG~! ♥
You're Amazing, Keep Rockin' xD

I'm pretty sure the keep rockin' part sounds misplaced... whoops~ ♥ ♥ ♥ oh well ^^
Anyway! Saturday! went out with feng. but missing our guitar class the previous saturday.
we din know that this saturday class canceled :\
So headed over to HengKim Trading Thats the shop that sells all those anime stuff xD
turns out its running low on workers,says the owner anyway.
So everytime he has to go out he has to close the shop then go back and open again, wow~
made a mental note to ask if he's hiring next time, cos he was busy that time.
Hmmm.. feng fell in love with

Exia Avlanche ahahax! but stopped himself from buying it to save up for his

Red Frame Ka


After that, went for lunch. came home. he hanged out my house awhile. To pose his...
00 Qan(T) vs my Zaku F2000 (zaku F2 form) Then Gaming with the group again for the afternoon.
Then went for church in the evening.
It was great, tho... group had a shortage of people...
kinda sad really... :\
nothing much after service. went home chatted with my friends for awhile tho.
But thats pretty much it.

Today! (Sunday)
Went to church in the morning after breakfast.
hmm~ was honestly half asleep in service.. but it was a good sermons :)
ahahax I like the last part most tho. About how when reaching heaven,
God will separate the Sheeps and the Goats
Meaning he will choose between the good and the wicked.
Those who have Fed, Given, Clothed, Saved, Sacrificed, Visited & Took Care of another.
Would be separated from those who does not.
so yeahh! Pas. Kel approached me too!
he asked me if I could help out the Trailer Ministry .
I didnt actually said yes, but i didnt say no either.
Ahahax! If he asks, I'll just do what I can ^^
Afterwards, Went to get my camera! wheeee~~
Hello my dear Nikon D3100 :) w/ 55mm lens



Bought it at.. RM 1,998
Cool! cheaper than i expected! ahahax~!
i mean its cheaper than the 2K - 3K cameras my friends are getting.
tho theirs are Canon.. But then i checked. Researched etc. etc.
Nikon is better. Altho not as userfriendly. but more options.
And at a cheaper price, u're not getting anything lousy.
I mean the specs aint that far off from the Canon 550D+55mm which costs over Rm2.3K +Nikon D3100 can take better looking Photos. I know! I researched!
Its due to the Nikon's better Focusing Mechanism.
LOL! Also, the salesman loves photography too! and said the model i bought was his first model too. ahahax and gave me some pointers. so... uhh yay?
I can say I'm fully prepared for Photography class next semester ^^

And now 2 of all random pics i took with it!
This is my fav pic so far. xD ahahax Black King Piece of the Harry Potter Chess Set.

& this pic proves how anything can look a whole lot better when in HD. LOL!

hmm.. then around 9+ jing ask me if wanna go out?
then we did.. me, jing, soon & junyong.
lol On the road we saw KianBoon.
after what seems like awhile of constant lane-switching on the roads.
Rolled-down windows and bunch of bad words and middle fingers thrown between both cars.
We msged him and went to boulevard to drink and chat awhile.
Then Boon had to leave first.
so left us 4 again. walked around the whole of boulevard.
Saw some familiar faces. Heard horrible singing on the first floor
(Catz fashion week singing competition or something)
Then we went back to the car,
went on over to Yong Min Chong cybercafe cos jing wanted to get something from there.
And then we headed over to Hui Sing and down to MJC, wasted time there talking and stuff.
Then saw wei yen. ahahax talked awhile. then he went back to his group.
and we went back home. Then gaming. and now i'm here blogging ahahax~
Awesome week i guess.
ohh~ soon said last friday he went to Friendship park for break-dancing
ahahax said that every night(? i think) 9 - 12am there got break-dancing and its open to all,
so he just went there to break.
again made a mental note to head over there for a look sometime xD
So yeah! thats been my week. teehee.
Tho i swear, if every week is gonna be like this,
I'ma soo gonna be broke next semester!
rofl!

Awesome week! I still had my emo moments... & I still.... ........
but overall i'm great.
That's all! Peace & Love! xoxoxoxo! ^^


...I still havent forgotten you...

broken by design.

So Finally I finished all my college assignment last week (thursday).
and with a minimum of just 1 breakdown. :) yay.
I've been thinking alot lately...
Okay, I think alot all the time, but anyway!
It was due to breakdown actually.
I was just overstressed i guess, I was feeling damn hopeless with my stupid map assignment.
and wondered why isit that I have to face it alone,
when there are people who do it with the help of others?
Then I figured, i dont really care about that.
Actually I'm bothered by how come its soo hard to complete it by myself.
(I still did it myself anyway, tho the outcome wasnt great, but I dont care anymore)
Well hmmm... yeahhh... I dont mind being alone or a loner. the silence is good at times too!
I just hate not being good enough to do things on my own sometimes.
Ya know, it really feels soo frustrating when no matter how hard you try and is unable to do something.

"No man is an island"? But... I wanna be an island...
all people ever do is hurt and disappoint. so whats the point? ahahax...


Anyway.. back to reality..
Friday, I asked hanjing to hav lunch wit me, my treat xD
so went to have McD~ lol~ after that went class. Handed in my work.
Lecturer didnt comment much, so I guess my artwork is okay...
I guess...? tho my juniors say its really nice =__=! dunno why.
anyhoo! Class breaktime, headed out with my friends to McD again,
Treated all of them to Mcflurry. ahahax~ xD
so yeahhh~ tats pretty much it on friday really...
Hmmm..
Saturday all gathered at my house,
to fix up Hanjing's Gundam (the one we gave him for his bday)
he liked how it looked after it got fixed up.
Cos its like all gold and shiny. lol!
I just watched them fix it up tho..

Actually i was playing Silent Hill 4 while they fix it up~
a super horror game aint as scary when u have a bunch of people wit ya.
and yes, Silent Hill is the only horror theme thing that freaks me out.
That.. and Dolls/Puppets... and also clowns. yeahhh hate them!
ahahax~ its fun to spend time with them, even if it is to do lame things.
Skipped church on sat. Didnt felt like going..
Nothing much happened on sunday either..
Just been kinda boring really..

Ahahax~ i love my friends tho xD

Loads of new movies releasing soon, cant wait for my exam to be over so I can go out and watch them xD
Captain America?
Rise Of The Planet Of The Apes?
Cowboys and Aliens?
Final Destination 5?
Conan?

Goodie~ cant wait.. ahahax..
Noting else much to say really, hmmm~
just that I hope to get better relation with my juniors next semester,
as they all seem like a fun group of people. ahahax~

sigh... tats all i guess... love n peace all~ byeh!

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I saw you, did you see me? I wanted to say Hi, but every move you make only reminded me of your goodbye.. sigh...


~~But I Really Wish You Would~ Drop Everything Now. Meet Me In The Pouring Rain, Kiss Me On The Sidewalk. Take Away The Pain~~
(Taylor Swift)

So This post is gonna be quite long i guess :)
ahahahax
first off... I would like to talk about...well.. religious stuff ahahax.


RELIGION

Seriously.. on wednesday, there was as always cell group meeting.
and i've been skipping alot of it.. I wanted to skip then too!
but i still ended up going.. but there were only 5 people there..
and CY actually talked about the last saturday service and stuff..
she feels bad that last time she felt like giving up on the cg d, cos really felt like she cant control it and stuff.. But then last saturday she was really touched and felt like restarting and doing her best for the cg etc. etc.
but what affected me most was that she said;
"All of us remains in church because we were touched by God. Also, you cant tell me that from the past, from when our CG was called obed-edom till now that the CG never helped you. So in truth, CG is suppose to be closer, more together. like an actual family."

Anyway! the the part about CG actually helped is true..
I guess I shudnt skip anymore, ahahax.
But yeahh.. CG does help, and it is like a family more or less.
I guess when you think about it.. yeah.. Just because we're not that close, doesnt mean we shouldnt meet up, in fact it means we should meet up more.
Whatsmore, we dont know if in the future we'd have the chance to meet up anymore.
People keep leaving to go overseas, work, have a busy life, etc.
I guess since I have time, I should actually go.
ahahax tat night was great tho..
altho there were only 5people. The atmosphere was different.
Really spirit-filled and just woowww~
ahahahax :) Amazing feeling.
So yeahh~ despite everything, i still loveee my cg :)..
After the whole meeting, i got to know CY a little better.
In the form of.... Kpop!
She said she wants to bleach her hair light blond too! :O
I wanna see that ahahahax! definitely gonna look very epic on her

Yesterday (saturday) service rocked too, with CHC SG SOT team coming to lead it.
ahahax really nice la. and and the guitarist sang You & Me by lifehouse summore,
wheee fav song! it reminded me of Adeline's bday party. LOL!
since i sang tat song to her tat time, ahahahax. lameeee~
anyway! yeahh~ today they english service also SOT mission team lead praise and worship and a few of the stuff, it was nice.. Even the testimony was nice... awesome. God is great.

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~~And our scars reminds us, the past is real; I tear my heart open. Just to feel~~
(Papa Roach)

College life has been going okay.. ahahax getting better friendship with the juniors :P lol!
altho.. by close, i mean that they're asking me to help them with their work :O. tsk tsk tsk.. LOL! but yeah! its nice to know new people.. for now however, i'm quite annoyed by some of the seniors. :O especially the group i'm stuck with in animation.. zz.. watever.. not gonna complain. sigh! College life.. ahahahax. so everything is duedate this week. so have to hand them in tomorrow. Animation and Website design, both done d. wheee~ now left history of art assignment and Fundamentals assignment. sigh! stressin' but then after next week no more classes until HoA exam. YESH.
Then finally! the semester will be over!

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~~I've been screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain, & its 2am, and i'm cursing your name! and thats the way I loved you~~
(Taylor Swift)


Next is ENTERTAINMENT:)
>So.. lately I've been watching animes. of course..
Latest anime i finished was; "Ookami Kakushi"
its nice! and its about the Japanese Wolf God. So yeah!
Turns out they're like a new form of werewolves.. actually more like superhumans
and they live with human race with the rules of not supposing to fall in love with them.
blah blah blah~ so yeah! its epic and a must watch! XD

Gonna finish my guitar lessons soon too.. lol.. Its fun to have learn a new skill..
ahahax! hmm what else? i guess thats pretty much it for entertainment, nothing much really

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Life itself has been overall okay i guess..
I'm getting tired of being lonely sometimes.
and also all the schoolwork and stuff.
at times i just wanna disappear or just not feel anything at all.
at times i dont know what i'm living for or what i'm doing.
But here i am, alive and waiting.
I dont know what to do or how to do it.
I just feel soo... actually.. no words can describe how i feel ahahax.
I havent went out with my friends for awhile d. i mean other then, eating out together once in awhile, been about 1month since we last had fun :(
friends in form6, are like super busy preparing for STPM so i havent had much contact with them too.
sighh~~~ so for the moment, life is quite dull.. :(
I wanna fall in love, i wanna have fun, i wanna do something crazy, I wanna see you, I dont wanna talk to you, i wanna scream out loud, i dont wanna be here, i dont, i do, i dont , i do..
I just wanna feel alive for just one more second..
Where's that Jolt of lifeforce when i need it most??
:'( I feel soo frustrated!
Oh yeah! and i really hate hate hateeee people who only finds you when they're sad and ignores u when they're alright. =__=!! annoying! zz roar~

Changed!

ahahax, song changed again!
I love this song currently :D
Its korean! ahahax..



Living In Your Heart - Untouchable Feat. Narsha (B.E.G.)

Translated Lyrics:

Please come back to me
Please come back to me
Please come back to me Girl~

I can`t Breath
I can`t smile everyday so because of you
I can`t sleep
I can`t live everyday so because of you

Girl , my heart's still warm towards you
It still beats tirelessly
But your heart's cold towards me
Its cold, so cold it may stop anytime

Im parched for your love
My heart that has been abandoned because it was too dry
And the only source of moisture is the tear dripping down

The smile that shines like the Sun
Is too hard to avoid
Breakups are like
The showering sadness that comes without any warnings

You're still breathing and living on
Within my warm heart
My heart towards you
Thumps all night long

I can't breath because of you
I can't smile because of you
Strangely enough when I smile, tear drips down (like a fool)
You're still living on in my heart
Am I still living on in your heart?
As long as I live (and breath) I can't forget about you...

I breath because of you
Then I smile because of you
I'm hurt because of you
Then I smile because of you
I'm hurt because of you
Then I cry because of you
I'm hurt because of you
Then I cry because of you

I can`t Breath
I can`t smile everyday so because of you
I can`t sleep
I can`t live everyday so because of you

Just like a cold wind in the winter
The cold and sore breakups
Spun and spun around like the seasons
And it finally has been pushed towards me once again

The beautiful memories
That were once warm like the spring
Our hot love that was once like
The hot summer no longer exists
Our love died out
Just like the falling leaves

The winter I thought it would never come
Finally came and found me


Cold love and people were meant to be
Now, I no longer believe in love...

I can't breath because of you
I can't smile because of you
Strangely enough when I smile, tear drips down (like a fool)
You're still living on in my heart
Am I still living on in your heart?
As long as I live (and breath) I can't forget about you...

I breath because of you
Then I smile because of you
I'm hurt because of you
Then I smile because of you
I'm hurt because of you
Then I cry because of you
I'm hurt because of you
Then I cry because of you

If I did something wrong
Please forgive me, I will repay back in folds
If I could meet you once more
I would do anything for that

I still can't forget about you
The traces of you won't erase
Our important memories that were like a dream (piles up)
I'm still waiting for you
Where are you now?
Isn't it strange, (even as time flies by or) when I smile tears keeps falling down

Please come back to me
Please come back to me
Please come back to me Girl~

Please come back to me
Please come back to me
Please come back to me Girl

Anyway.. the last few days has been epic..
ahahahax Church Service with Rev.Joseph Tai..
Uhmm, I actually cried :O ...
lol.... details? ahahx not gonna say anythng :')
Just uhh yeahhh~ I guess i should get my life back on track.. ahahax.
I dont know what to post really.. bahhhh~
blah blah blah... :') tats all! what a lame blogpost eh? ehehe..

Oh, I Downloaded; How To Train Your Dragon.
And watched it again. xD aahahax to me its a very nice n cute animated cartoon :')
Love it! :D whee~~~ going McD this wed.. yummm~~!~!~!~!
Uhh yeah! that's pretty much it ;D

Boku Wa Shitteru

So.. I changed my blog song to a Japanese Song..
its by Japanese Rockstar Miyavi~ Its called;

Boku Wa Shitteru ( I Know)

its a pop song.. and well, it was the first slow song i really loved that was done by him xD
its soo sentimental. uhh yeah! so here's the translated lyrics! :D


I know, I know, I know.
That I know about you, but
You don't even know my name.

I know, I know, I know.
That you have someone important to you,
Sometimes when you're together with that person you look so happy.

I know, I know, I know.
That when you come back from dates with that person you love to get coffee at the place you always go.
Of course, because that is my best coffee.

I can't tell jokes and make you laugh
And I can't listen without complaining,
But anytime you like I'll pour you a little bitter coffee.

I know, I know, I know.
That you looked lonely when you incidentally showed me your face when you came alone.
"Maybe it was too bitter" well,
I also know that's not it.

The one thing I really don't know about you
Is why I've come to like you so much?

Just one cup of coffee, that all the love I can give to you.

I know, I know, I know.
That the reason you aren't coming lately is not the taste after all.
Because on the last rainy day, what was rolling down your soaked cheeks was not rain.

I can't hold you close on cold nights
And I can't be beside you till morning,
But if you want to drink a little bitter coffee
Come over again anytime.

So until that time, stay well.



:) ahahahax, its such a super duper cute song xD
wheee~ uhmmm okaye...
So speaking about LOVE.. ahahax
the other day i chatted with my beloved japanese sister.
ahahax about well, love.
she saw my fb pic of Paris.
I actually said that if possible i wanna find a french gf in the future.
then we chat chat chat.
And she said that she feels a japanese girl would fit me more :S
cos they dont care as much about material and money as other people.
and stuff like that, u know the usual japanese culture of their women.
huh. which makes me blur.. pahahahax xD still, it's alonggggg way to go before anything happens..
Sigh! soo long... :(
I hate waiting. hmph! ahahax
also i found online that, Korean girls are actually more materialistic than other girls in the world o.O and they're more career minded.
woowwwieee~
So.. i'm glad i like japanese more than korean for that one point. ROFL!
yeahh~ i'm bored and dont know what to say...

mehh that's all.. peace out!

Dont you worry your pretty little mind~

Dont you worry your pretty little mind, People throw rocks at things that shine, and life makes love look hard..The stakes are high, the water's rough. But this love is ours :)

So.. lately, I've been super duper busy with assignments argh..
nothing much happened really.
I just feel and wish that some people would be more considerate towards others.
ahahax, that and i'm disgusted by how some people gossip and spread rumors about others without having any proof or anything.
As well as the people who try oh so hard to make people stand on their side of their personal emotions towards another person.
Like someone hates someone and talked bad about them and want others to actually join him/her against that person. seriously?
c'mon. you're suppose to be older than me and you're still playing such childish games.
Worse. If friendship means that i have to take your side every time, that aint friendship.
That's just you being pathetic. I personally like friends who will never pick sides.
ahahax that way i know they'd never betray me, cos they were never with me or the other person to begin with anyway. xD
And thats what i do too! if you hate him/her, then its your problem.
And if its someone I dont know at all, then its even more inappropriate to make me go against them. :)
Do i make myself clear?
yes? good!..

Now... back to my life..
wow! been really worried about a friend of mine to be honest.
Ahahax assignments and personal problems has really got to her, hope you're still holding up; Jiayou! xD
uhmm~ i've been having nightmares alot lately.
one of which stands out more than the rest..
it had someone in it... ahahx
and that someone killed all my friends. :O
SO yeahh~~ whatsmore! It was one of those dreams where it's all super creepy but not scary enough to wake you up.... you know that feeling sucks like !@#$%^&.
ehehe...


Hmmm~ i dont know what to post about really... just really been feeling quite dead..
Sigh! save me? D: