Long Time Coming...

So its been a longgg while since i last updated.

Nothing much happened tho..

I went to KL for my brother's wedding registration.

Uhmm helped him snap some pics.

Although I dont really like it there, its good.. i mean a vacation after the hectic semester.. lol

got myself 2 Model Kits

HG Methuss

HG Hyaku Shiki + Mega Bazooka Launcher

got myself a new watch too~ A Vincci watch ;D

Overall i guess it was a good trip.

Upon reaching back to Kuching, I saw the head of my college arts and design faculty.

lol~ waved at him as he waved back..

That's like the only wave we communicate actually, we just wave at each other.

Cos i've never been his students in any of my subs so its like awkward.

but he knows me, n i know him. LOL

uhmm yeahh..

during my stay at KL during the time when I got nothing to do.

I would switch on my laptop and watch

Shiki

which is now one of my fav horror/vampire anime :D

And thats pretty much it for my KL trip..
nothing much really.. ahaha..


hmm i've watched a bunch of movies during my holidays..
uhmmm went to watch

Battleship

 yeahh.. hmmm nothing much to say on this one.
Good story, nice graphics, interesting take on the original Battleship game.
8/10

Lockout


Good storyline, nice graphics.
cool characters and a story with a starting and an ending, no cliffhangers.
8/10


Cabin In The Woods
 

Its genre is horror.. BUT it felt more like a comedy..
or rather a Scooby Doo rip off.. only without the dog. lol
horrible horror movie, good comedy:
5/10

cos I was looking forward to a horror movie.. not comedy



The Avengers

Its not bad.. i'd give it
7/10

The Hulk is awesome. LOL


Ghost Buddies

Malaysian movie, starring Mark Lee
Comedy.. funny... and lame :)
6/10


then at home i watched 3 more movies,


Intruders

Interesting Storyline, a little freaky.
A horror movie children would be able to watch :)
7/10

Shutter Island

Genre: Psychological/Thriller , starring Leonardo DiCaprio.
Its kinda creepy. I can imagine how nice it would be if i saw it at the cinema.
interesting storyline, freaky characters. a little confusing.
7/10
Only cos I've watched The Jacket, which for me is still the best Psychological film

Thir13en Ghosts

A classic, downloaded it cos my friend wanted to watch.
I loved this movie when it first came out. and rewatching it. made me love it just the same :)
Check it out. its a classic. and completely worth watching.
8.5/10

What I've learned from all the horror movies I watched is...

EVERY HORROR MOVIE WILL HAVE THAT SPECIAL MOMENT.

Every horror movie would always have that one moment when they give you the highest depth of horror in the film.
That one scene that would make you remember the movie for a very long time.

It could be a disgusting act, eerie makeup, freaking sound, watever. it will make you remember the film!

Here are some examples!
Dont read any further if you're screamish or scared :P
Also~ pictures aren't as scary as in the movie :)

Example 1: Mirror (2008), The girl who tore her own jaw off by reflection.

Example 2: The Shinning (1997 remake), The lady in the bath tub.

Example 3: Final Destination 3 (2006), Nailed by a nail gun.

 

Thats all For Horror!

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uhmm yeahhh... played and finished a new game.

Kingdom Of Amalur: Reckoning

Its fun and worth checking out.
But not fun enough to be re-played.
still worth playing tho.. Took me only a week to finish..
Comparing it to my one month of playing Skyrim... Reckoning has failed in comparison.
6/10


and that's pretty much it.
nothing new :)

Lately

Woowwwwwssss soooooo like lately~ hmmmmm~
ahhh soo much to update on.. teeheehee :X
ahahax Neway!
ehehehe, uhmmm well..
KL wasnt anything much, still..
Traded away my old old oldddd Macbook pro (2006).
To get meself a new laptop xD Yummy~
ahahax.... Asus Lappy with 8GB ram, 1GB graphics, Core i5 Gen 2, Windows7, 500gb HD space. :) for only 2.5K
wooooowwwww~ ahahahax :) totally worth it. Thankius!
ehehehe And thats pretty much it for the KL trip.
I know rite? No fun ahahax.
Well the Kbox with my bro n his gf not bad xD
Watching my bro having to sing a Gaga song made my day x) funny si~
Bahhh... in the end I still stick to Linkin Park for my Kbox singing. :S
I dunno its just.... easier to sing. LOL!
and of course abunch of One Republic songs wheeee~
so yeah that was pretty much KL for me. :)
ahahax fail eh? but really, theres nothing much there..
at least for me there isnt. :S
bahhhh anyway..
uhmmmm the vet/pet shop i sent Sparx to called the day i was to fly back to kch.
:( they killed him! sigh! rawr..... annoyed ah~ still annoyed..
sigh! :( so yeahhhh that day wasnt soo bright for me... sigh!
I Dont wanna talk about it~
uhmmm..
The rest of the week i just tried my best to fix up my laptop.
reading House Of Night Book 6: Tempted :) bought it at KL.
Uhhmm yeah.... thats all for my weekday actually..
ahahax contacted with Dor more n more.
Ended up meeting her at Scoops after my saturday guitar class with feng kor~ xD
ahahahahahahax Feng Kor! :X I shud use that more often xP kek si you! :X
soo yeah! sawwww ZR working there too :) ahahax..
yeahh din talk to her much :X ooppsss well i wudnt know wat to say anyway!
awkward :S *cricket sounds*
So yeah! I just knew scoops got sell,
Sprite+Blue Cocoa wheeee~~~~love it soo soo soooooo muchies!
Altho its not really Electric Lemonade (cos its missing alcohol and lemon)
But still! love it! ahahahax :)
Feng Kor xD rofl! ordered a very extremely creamy expresso.
:S tested one mouth of it. and its like OMFG too much cream aahahahahax.
:) but thats pretty much it, we chatted about animes, robots, japan, guitar, future, art, design, blah blah blah you know, college; soon to be designer stuff.. pfft~
at the same time sms-ing with Dor~ who finally arrived!
but ended up being bz with her work awwww~ D:
din get to chat much, but it was nice meeting her :) ehehehe~!
so yeah~! that was it for my sat morning.
Night went to church was totally blur!
Cos it was an eventful youth celebration @.@
had people singing and dancing on stage performance and stuff.
very epic and fun. LOL!
:) yeah felt very revived on saturday xD
It was a really really great day!
And Remember that night, makes me like Jamie jie jie's ahahax. JAMIE JIE JIE! :X
yeah i love her Elmo shirt more n more! gahh soo adorable :X
I mean yeah! Elmo was my fav character in sesame street.
But i never collect elmo stuff or anything :) but i like the shirt.
ahahax :X uhh soo yeah!
Church this morning tooo~~
hmmmm~ nothing special. :)
hmmm~~~ then went out liao lor xD straight skip all the boring part.
pen lai wanted to go watch Pirates de.
but no seat left...
ended up blur not knowing what to watch :O
so just meet up first lor.
out with Destiny, Dor, ZR and Alyn mei~
LOL! xD i seriously shud use this style more often!
ALYN MEI! :X
ahahahahx :) so yeah! uhhh, before meeting up tho..
got stuck outside SUB by Aaron Liew.
argh! ahahax :) no la, nothing bad. just chatted awhile :)
So yeahhhhhh~ thats all for that.
uhh uhhh~~ then finally meet up with Destiny,Dor & ZR lor
x) we spent our time, uhhh okay i spent my time watching them talk n joke
pahaha~ :x and then we walk n walk n walk. up and down dunno wat to do.
and finally we ended up in MBO Hall 5! watch horror movie!
Not just any horror movie! KARAK malay horror movie!
wth? LOL! I can honestly say its my first time watching a malay movie in cinema
and again I say! it wasnt as bad as i expected...
i know rite? i tot it'd be a total fail, but it was actually quite.... nice...
ahahax :) it like teaches a few extra stuff about the muslim religion xD
reminds me of PLKN
ahahax Culture and religion :s
uhhh yeahhh!
Alyn mei mei still eats... alot.... a wholeee freaking lot. :O ue seriously shud cut down yo! :X
ahahahax jk :)
overall it was a great night...
I like meeting new people.... and stuff like that, so blah :)
speechless... Destiny lost her bracelet tho...
She just knew when we all went home d
sad chin.... :\ hope she cheers up soon lor...
I really dunno wat to say about that part..
Overall the day was great la... :)
and the movie rating i give 7/1o. which is very high d. :O
lol.... :) that's pretty much it for my week.
Loved it. It be outings like these, and friends like these that makes me love my life oh soo much! :) I've had no regrets this entire week... tho a few things made me sad n cry here n there now and again... But overall I'm happy... ahahax... :) Happy happy.. not the fake smile, happy. but truly happy xP blueks! too mushy!
ahahahx i love u all!
that would be all..
Peace and Love! :)

Justice? You Jest!

.:PRIDE:.
Vanity: The Form Of Self-Idolatry, In Which One Rejects God For The Sake Of One's Own Image


I am the kind of person who believes goodness in everyone.
That said, good and evil is inseparable.
So Ultimately I believe in the evil that lurks within every living person as well.
But I choose my friends and foes wisely, if what you show me is not off ill-will and ill-intentions then I shall not judge thee to be evil in any way.
Human... Arent we all such narcissistic bunch? ahaha.

Justice (8th card of the Tarot)
In Forward Form: Injustice In Your Life That Needs To Be Justified.
Reversed Form: Life Going Out Of Balanced (current or near future)

But alas, who are we to judge what is right and what is wrong?
Tis' no urban legend that people believe that Justice in blind..
In truth.. she really is...
I dont know the story behind the whole belief.
Maybe she judge people too much and had her eyes crawled out of her face.
Maybe she was born blind. but either way.
The reason she's portrayed as such; is cos, most crime are not seen, but only heard.
where the offense and defense argue about their own beliefs of 'The Truth'.
For justice to be done accordingly. But how is it justified if Justice herself is blind?
Whose to say what is right and what is wrong?
Who are we to judge the being of this world?

Justice? In this world. You must be joking.

A world where killers roam free.


Murderers considered heroes.


Freedom Fighters called Terrorist.

Cults legalized for even the more horrific acts.

No, This world is not justified.
Darkness has shrouded every living being on this planet.
And what do we do? we judge all the rest just as how wrongly judge everyone else is.
We are not them, we dont not know what they think nor feel.
But if an act is done against another; It is a crime, regardless of the offender's self-emotion.
But Justice is not served for these crimes, sufferings given but no one saves the sufferer.
The world is bad enough as it is.
Why do people continue to make it worse?
ahaha.. Justice holds a balance. Its within that balance that at times..
Good is rewarded for their deeds, and the Evil punished. Also.. at times.
Evil is set free and the Good imprisoned.
Tis' a balance to balance this world. in both chaos and harmony.
Peace and War, no difference in one another.


So for me.. Emotionally I may be weak.
I may hate and I may love.
But i choose to hate and love everyone and everything around me.
Good or bad. No.. Good AND bad.. I accept.
For I am balanced just like anyone else.
Only human. I aint perfect. ahahax.
Tho it's just a choice if i wanna be that perfect.
A simple choice.
A choice that lately i dont seem to be making lately..
I've been down... ahahax. but still up..
I feel messed up but still alright.
Mehh...

I'm reminded of something, I still want a tattoo :X And the thing that reminds me of is... Someone once said she would get a tattoo on her neck if I got a tattoo too. I wonder if that offer still stands..? :P

Anyhoo!
nothing much happening lately... its friday.
Going to KL tomorrow. sigh~!
Uhmm I guess that's it.. heh!
Been thinking of looking for someone.. But dunno how I should do so.. Sigh!
Nehh! That's pretty much it I guess.
Nothing much for me to say. I'm just bored.... and this topic just came to mind today.

Justified? Clearly not. But who cares. Tis' Life.
I Know that in the past if I'd taken a different choice, I might not have became the way i am now.
I would have had a better life, better friends. and I wouldnt have had to face the things I faced all alone..

But I did, And it was in those moments that my shall we say 'innocent' blood was tainted by darkness of injustice.

My soul holds hatred and unforgiveness
But, I truly wonder if that year, my choice was made differently would it had stop the darkness from reaching me?

Would I not be who I am today? or would I have become worst instead?
But.. Well i guess the past is as it should be, nothing can be changed for it.
Nothing can be done about it..

Sigh~~~ I wish I had someway to contact you.

Forgive my random ramblings. tis' a blog afterall.

Goodnight all, peace and love peeps :)

Dont Patronize!

Scylla, The Sea Monster. Daughter of the Sea God "Phorcys" and Sea Goddess "Ceto".

First off i wanna get a random sentence off my chest.
A wish for a life to be easier, better, richer, happier, prosperous or overall "good", is really lame, stupid, and slightly pathetic i feel. LOL! Life has taught me that, if you want it better you gotta make it better, sitting around wishing aint gonna change anything. There's no such thing as a perfect life, only good decisions to make life more perfect. Our perfection are all in our imperfections. Clearly, people with their "This is as good as it's gonna get" attitude would never achieve over-average goals or even their own dreams. They've also set the limit to themselves.
Ultimately, I feel Dreamers rise above higher than the realists and wishers. Cos' we believe in ourselves, not bound by whatever the world appears to be, or whatever we want the world to be. We just think, dream and reach out for it. Risks and chances to make life better is all good when you know what your main goal and aim is. For that I say; I shall not have the chains of reality bind me ever again! Nothing is impossible. Cos I choose perfection, to believe in myself. One Life to live; One life to dream, take chances, make differences and have no regrets.

Dreamers are meant to be flexible, reliable, multipurpose, interchangeable, upgradable, unpredictable and ultimately a risk-taker. That's my target, to be ehehe~ EVERYTHING.


"Dream As If You'd Live Forever, Live As If You'd Die Today." - James Dean

So! today really nothing much happened. Chatted with friends and I guess that's pretty much it.
Haiz~ going KL this sat :( Bahh! I wanted a lazy holiday of me sleeping at home and doing random stuff and hanging out with friends. But Nooo~ i have to end up going KL.. hmm! ahahahax! Gonna buy stuff and make my bro pay for em'! :B wheee~
ahahhax! I wish I could bring my guitar with me.. :( but I cant.. Have to pay extra..
Swt! D: so bringing my laptop wit me.. LOL! x__X
blah blah blah~ I REGRET NOT MEETING SOMEONE TODAY! D: shyt! :X
ahahahax.... Tomorrow I'm gonna just be doing my artwork.
Wheeee~ BloodCross :)
ahaha~ :) Anyhoo~~ Today's post isnt anything much really..
I'd like to say something 2 people.

"It doesnt matter what others say, It doesnt even matter what they think or do. Around the world there are alot of people. And there are definitely those who would stand by your side and never betray you for it. Dont let your fear overtake you. Friends come and go. Good friends and bad friends. It doesnt matter. Even Enemies come and go. The fact still remains that you'll always be here. Always. For it is your life. Judge, not judge. Label, not label. Spread Rumors, be the main rumor. Who cares? One life to live, fear shouldnt be part of it. Chaos may come, it may hurt lots. but its only in pain that you will find true strength if not true friends. Smile. Face The World. You dont need anyone to help you stand on your own feet. Like I said about, Perfection is in you. Dont ever give that up. Its a choice that will always be available to you. Perfection to me does not mean being a God or anything. It just means being able to stay strong for yourself, no matter how you do it. At the same time achieving and changing yourself to the best YOU you're suppose to be. :) Always here for you sis. Take care."



Another..
"Fear may overcloud you, You may have lost more than most. And life probably has taught you that, Not everything that is lost can be ever found again. You search, looking for the one thing that can replace the emptiness. Holding on tight to it. Keep holding. Dont let go. But let that illusion of stability and perfection be your only support to stand. You're Alive. This IS LIFE. Your life. Its meant to be lived without fear and not limiting yourself. People make bad choices all the time. And at times holding on may be the choice you choose for you think without it you would fall. But at times it is the thing you hold on to most that makes you weaker and weaker each day. Draining every sense of life in you. Everything that proves you're alive. Everything that your life is suppose to stand doesnt have to be thrown away for fear. Your life was saved, you've been redeemed and given a chance to live a good life. Dont overthink, dont doubt, make a stand, make a choice. And Think Clearly. Is this all your life is worth? Is this all you see for yourself and your future? Dont make commitment to things you are still unsure of. Dont because of fear lock yourself to an unhappy future. You have a choice. There's always a choice. And I hope you will make the right one for yourself."

Rawr

So my week's been interesting :B

I'm crushing hard on a girl when i really really reallyyy not in the mood to have a relationship.
awww. LOL!

Anyway! went to watch priest yesterday after guitar lesson with feng.
It was nice... LOL! 7/10 rating for me.
It was okay, just not long enough. 1hour 20mins makes it bad. D:
Tho the graphics and concept damn cool.
I didnt watch it in 2D but i keep thinking it'd had been better if i did.
Cos alot of parts of the movie Would have looked better in 3D

ahahax.
And today went to mbo to watch
Fast and Furious 5. with Jun Yong, Feng, Eric & Jing.
it was nice! ahahax xD tho i'm disappointed as there were no longer any RX8 in this one D:
awww. my fav car gone poof... lol... yeah overall it gets a 9/10
yeahh! The Rock throwing punches with Vin Diesel is a big PLUS to the movie.
Ahahahax! :D awesome! No disappointment :B

Now awaiting next week for Pirates Of The Caribbean! :D wheee~
cant wait for that! :B

AND Right now the thing i want most for my birthday,
the no.1 on top of the whole list is a freakin Graphics card.
:O I just did a games requirement check for games and my com cant support most of them.
Even Dragon Age 2 cant support. :( boo!
my current graphics is called a Display Adapter xD it's not even a real graphics card.
But anyway.. :) i loved the way it handled most of the games til now.
But its time for an upgrade :| everything else is fine tho..
Bahhh! things to get from KL now is..

1- hard-disk
2- Tablet
3- 3D-max Program for MAC OS
4- Desktop Graphics Card (Nvdia Prefered since i'm doing all my school work on Mac)
5- Clothes! :D

and thats it.. :\ wowww~ all together is like 1K worth of stuff.
Ahahahax. hopefully with everything enhanced I'd be able to really do my stuff properly.
xD and maybe earn some cash like all my awesome awesome online artists friends :(
I envy you all soooo much! LOL!

Bahh! hmmm everything else has been more or less the same.
I'm finally freeeee~ from college until june.
So yeah! all's good!! :D ahahax
That's pretty much it.. Tired... Nights!

Boring post

ねぇ神様...答えてよ　どうすれば願いは叶う？

So~~~ I havent been doing much lately. ahahax. sigh!
been busy studying for exam (in 2 days) and also memorizing the word power thingy.
boring. Finished House of night book 5 dunno when gonna buy book 6.
Blah! so yeah! been soo dead lately i dont know what i'm doing anymore :(
Fallen in love. Fallen hard. But I dont wanna be.
So I'm just waiting for the crush to fade. ehehe~ :)
ohh Guitar lessons are going great. more or less. LOL!
blah! I dont know what to post about?!
my days have been sooo dull! :(

Downloading Psychoville season1.
Cos Cyn (cousin) kept saying its nice and i would like it.
And she's probably right. But then its taking soo long to download.
rawr rawr rawr!
I've got a life but there's nothing for me to do or build on it right now.
Grrr~ cant wait to be rid the exam and get on with holidays
ahahax.. My bday coming up!
wheeeee~ next semester starts on my bday! wheeee~
actually i aint happy about that. boo! :'(
I rather spend my bday doing what i wanna do.
Not doing most probably nerve-wrecking assignments the lecturer throws at me D:
and I dont think anyone's free to go out that day either.
And I doubt I can find enough people to start an actual party :(
hmph. boo!!! rofl!
what do I want for my birthday?
well since its a wish, it probably wont come true.
But still, its a materialistic world and I've got my needs... well.. Wants.. ahahax

1. Playstation 3 (So.. it probably would eat up most of my time.. gaming. but still. I want it)
2. LG Lollipop (simple stylish phones ftw! say no; to blackberries and Iphones. NO! xP)
3. Electric Guitar (with the amp and everything :D ahahax. "Flying V" prefered tho :B)
4. Mazda RX8? ahahahax! as if anyone would give me that as a gift :S sigh! still a long way to go before i can get one :(
5. this is the simplest gift i want. A PET FOX! :D awwww soo cute! :)

But in the end! xD who really get gives on their bdays anymore?!
LOL! no one. especially not people my age. bwahahaha xD
So i dont really expect anything.. Or rather I hope nothing unexpecting happens.
I dont know, I've grown weary of surprises.
aiyayayayayai~ ahahahax.
so anyway! my current fav song is...
Eenie Meenie Minie Moe~
NO NO NO NOT THE JB SONG. :X I hate that, when i say song title and people think its a song by someone who is a sucky to me :X LOL! Anyway! I'm talking about the korean song :) and it's by none other than~


~Lee Jung Hyun~
aka. Hyoni (jap) aka. AVA (US)
LINKIE
("Baby, love me love me now. Baby, give me give me now. la la la ba da bom ba la la la la" )


next is well you can pretty much guess this one..
SIMPLE PLAN! :DJET LAG!
LINKIE

NOW ENOUGH WITH MUSIC!

LETS CHECK OUT
THE BEST ANIMATED MUSIC VIDEO ON YOUTUBE
(FAN MADE). ahahahax
LINK
its really really awesome :'D

haizzz~ anyway! i seriously am superbly bored right now. :(
I feel like starting the Blood Cross. But I dont know where to begin D:
Dang! LOL! oh! the Blood Cross be the misfit group of anti-superhero/Assassins. I've been meaning to draw/sketch out since 2 years ago. but never had time to. ahahax
Its basically a 6 people group of mercs.

BLOOD CROSS - Sneakpeak of the Character Background

6. A Desperado european mix japanese assassin, who specializes in firearm combat. One of the first pioneers of the Blood Cross Organization.

5. A highschool dropout girl with psychic ability who was saved by Blood Cross from juvenile prison after blowing her schoolmates head into bits and pieces.

4. A mechanic who likes to keep to himself, whereabouts and past unknown. handy with any tool and weapon given and can fix up some badass guns. He's maybe fat and slow. But what he lags in speed, he makes up for by carrying his big cannon around. + he has a scottish accent.


3. A rogue monk who specializes in stealth and quick assassinations. He was hunted for leaving his temple, he fought back and died atop the forbidden shaolin mountain. But miraculously managed to find his inner strength to give himself the breath of life once again. Battled and bruised he was found by Blood Cross during one of their looting mission and He was saved and pledge allegiance to the group.

2. Beauty in its most deadliest form. Another pioneer of the group. A Chinese woman, She holds great intellect in getting into high-security facilities and specializes in melee switchblade combat. Of course that doesnt stop her from having a few guns hidden here and there. She moves fast and silent like a snake, and strike with precision and swift.

1. With great power comes great destruction ? comes the leader of the blood cross organization. A cyborg. An Immortal. Merged as one. Inhuman. A Monster. The reason behind the history of the organization lies with him.




ahahax. actually i've given the whole group a lot of random thots and jumbled them all together.
I think i have a history for each and every one of them d. :) but i never really gotten up to actually draw them out. ahahaha. bluek! thats all i guess... :)

PEACE AND LOVE!

Reality Check!

You're not special, nor unique, nor extraordinary. You're just human. Only Human. Perfection does not run through the veins of people from birth, it does not grow with time either. It is a characteristic.. an attitude.. that can only be achieve via hard work, desire and dedication. And as far as I'm concerned, my only goal in life is to achieve that Perfection. Although, not in its every form. But in the form of Arts; every form of arts in Perfection. Thats my life goal, to express the beauty in the ultimate expression of self; Art. be it an animation, a 3D design, 2D design, 4D design, Virtual Reality, Sketches, Painting or even in the form of words. I wish to bring forth a new age and open the eyes of creativity hidden in the minds of the most imaginary visionaries. I've set my mark, and working towards it. :)


and in other news... i know i've posted this before, but the thought has just sinked into me more within the month. Church leadership. heh! I for sure dont think I can do it. Oh hell! i cant even take care of myself and God knows my spiritual life is a rollercoaster. I aint perfect in spirit. But... he stroke me down with the urge to take up sure responsibility. and i dont know if I should. ahahax, ahh! actually i think i shouldnt, ehehe~ an imbalanced person like me would drive my members crazy if not crazier than they already shud be. But than it might be a fun experience even if i fail at it. :O gahh, shud i take the chance? WILL I MAKE A GOOD LEADER?

"A truly good king should serve his people rather than demand to be served"



another random thought is wondering if i should try teaching Arts tuition. ahahahax. I may not be the best artist, but i can definitely express concept that can release one's imagination to a whole new level. Beyond what science can ever explain. Should I?
gahhh yes, i've been thinking alot lately.. At any rate. Passed up all my assignments last friday. so now I'm freeeeee for the semester :D yay! except marketing exam. pffttt~ Then i'm off to KL wooo! shopping! :X ahahax.. :)

okay so i havent been that great lately.
Been overthinking lately. oh hell, been crying abit too. ehehe
A part of me thinks i should go back to how I was before, and lock myself in a mentally built wall. That would keep everyone in society out when I find peace in solitude..
A part of me think i should step out even more and embrace that of which I once hated most.... people... hmmmm~ decisions, decisions...

People are a constant pain that I can really do without sometimes..
but on the contrary they can be the one thing to save me from complete damnation. ehehe. what ever should I do? D:
I found my peace in solitude... :| but i know clearly that it isnt the will of God. ahaha... My will to lock myself in a fog of darkness shrouded from the world that is here... Argh, yes I've been overthinking alot. still am. I just dont see what the world can show me besides imperfection, and yet its those imperfections that makes it unique to watch. Still a life without them would bring forth to me an illusion of perfection in my own imagination.
Oh dear God~~ :( what's wrong with me?

I have alot of decisions to make, and I gotta make them soon, or else I'd be stuck in a whole lot of confusion again. :( and tats bad for my future plans.

Oh yeah! heard lotsa cool story lately and i'd like to say;
stop telling me about people killing people/committing suicide over relationships. i'm not interested in knowing stories like that. (like theres one about some Indian guy liking a girl, but the girls family dont allow their relationship, and he got angry went to the girl's school and chop her head off with their Indian hook knife right in front of all the students there... ewwwww much? LINK TO REPORT) LOL i have the most awesome mum ever, cos she always tells me this kinda stuff. effects of reading too much Stephen King i guess. ahahax. but then I cant say that they're not interesting, its just that I rather not know some of the reasons why things like dat happen. I'd rather just know the; student cutting another student's head off part. :\ Just too much drama when u add in the problems and reasons.




& In other news
I've grown to have a certain love for blades.. no not katana, no not actually blade blades. more like daggers and switchblades. and also Kataras/Katar Daggers. at any rate, i think i might buy some as some sick new hobby of mine. pfft! MAYBE. lol, then again it might just be another thing to waste my cash on. ahahahas :B
That said;



Animes!



Rewatched True Tears (it still makes me cry at the end!) It just keeps making me wish i could have a relationship like that, despite the not so happily ever after part.




I also watched; Blade Of The Immortal
lotsa sick samurais and warriors in there; Like one crazy samurai who cant stand seeing beautiful women die, so he would like kill them; preserved their body (like mummy ointment!) and cut their upper body off and sew the neck and head into his shoulders. Ewwww~ psycho! And for him its like; Death is the only thing eternal thing in life... Unfortunately the main character is an Immortal not bound by death. which made that guy go crazy gaga being totally unhappy that his vision of Death being eternal is actually false. pfft!





I also rewatched well... .Hack//Sign
Cos its just one of the most epic animes I've ever seen (excluding FMA of course) I guess cos its this anime that made me wanna become a multimedia artist in the first place. ehehe... It may be old, and may not have any special effects or 3D animation. And it doesnt even have much Action in it. its more of a confused mindtwisting anime, that makes one well.. Think. And the creator is just soo damn creative. So yeah... still my fav anime of all time. CLASSIC :D



Watched also Asura Cryin'
its interesting.. Its about Rosen Bridges bringing forth a gate way to the Asura world, where Asura Machina are able to travel through them.. But the only way for people to control one in the real world, is to sacrifice a person for it. to become the lifeforce for the being. Its very interesting. How being friends with a ghost can allow one to control a huge gaint another dimension death-like robot. LOL!



There's also KARAS,
Its a very interesting OVA, as its like a 3D and anime version of Kamen rider/ultraman/power ranger. watever those kind of shows were back in the 90s. now KARAS however is more dark and sinister and since its in anime form, its more gruesome, with blood spilling all over and demons and death taht sucks people's body, it makes the show more epic than it should be... But i only watched 2episodes of it, out of the 6episodes. ahahas. I dont think I'd watch it tho, aint really my type of anime.

anyway, went to watch Thor with Feng and Ric just now. :)
Feng also brought his cousin out too. :) I forgot his name. LOL!
at any rate. Thor was interesting... tho it wasnt the movie i wanted to watch most within this and last month. But still it was okay... 7/10 for me. Taking in its genre and style. But all there is were special effects, if it werent for the special effects it wouldnt score a 7/10. cos the storyline is just LAME. So as far as superhero movies go. The Dark Knight was and will be my top fav. thanks to The Joker :) but dont knock Thor out of the watchlist, cos if u like Comic book heroes than sureee you'd love the movie too. And it also have a hidden trailer after the credits so yeahhh~
Anyway! going to cinema again within this week. ehehe cant wait :D gonna watch Red Riding Hood (FINALLY?!?! :X)


Uhmmm, I think thats pretty much it for this random update...
Uhmm yeah! peace n love :)