I meant it when I said..

I havent been sleeping well lately.

Feel like I'm being haunted by my thoughts heh..

For the past 2 weeks I've been killing myself over the Ayuko's passing.

but how can I not? :(

It's been 2months and the wounds have not healed.

She was the type of girl that would never betray another.

She was probably the type of girl I've wanted all along,

faithful, adventurous, kind, playful, loving, supportive and independent

we share pretty much all the same things,

fav animal being cats, fav color purple, etc. etc.

I was the person who made her fairytale fantasy a reality

but she was the person who made my love-life fantasy possible.

sadly, the fantasy was short-lived..

but I nothing I've done in my life was as meaningful
as the time I've spent with her.

Sure, it was a long-distance relationship, but to have it reach the height it did.

I thought maybe it would last forever. but.. it didn't..

and over the past 2months I haven't been to church
except on Sundays,even then I don't feel anything.

see, during the time she was ill. I spend most of my days praying and stuff.

but the ending, there was no miracles.

How can God, who is said to be loving and merciful take such a pure and innocent person?

...she was happy when she passed on.

She couldn't bare seeing her family in pain,
nor could she continue living in pain.

I've never met a person more pure or strong as her.

I don't know if it was due to the sickness
or because it's just the way she is,but I fell in love with her.

It pains me to know that maybe 40% of the people on this planet doesn't deserve their long-life as she deserved hers. Even I don't deserve this life.

I mean, I've looked for death before, its clear that I don't value my life much.

I've been blaming myself and beating myself up
cos I feel like I could've done more.

or how much better it could have ended but it didn't.

now I'm just a complete mess..
and its probably an emotion no one else can ever understand :\

sigh..

Long Time Coming...

So its been a longgg while since i last updated.

Nothing much happened tho..

I went to KL for my brother's wedding registration.

Uhmm helped him snap some pics.

Although I dont really like it there, its good.. i mean a vacation after the hectic semester.. lol

got myself 2 Model Kits

HG Methuss

HG Hyaku Shiki + Mega Bazooka Launcher

got myself a new watch too~ A Vincci watch ;D

Overall i guess it was a good trip.

Upon reaching back to Kuching, I saw the head of my college arts and design faculty.

lol~ waved at him as he waved back..

That's like the only wave we communicate actually, we just wave at each other.

Cos i've never been his students in any of my subs so its like awkward.

but he knows me, n i know him. LOL

uhmm yeahh..

during my stay at KL during the time when I got nothing to do.

I would switch on my laptop and watch

Shiki

which is now one of my fav horror/vampire anime :D

And thats pretty much it for my KL trip..
nothing much really.. ahaha..


hmm i've watched a bunch of movies during my holidays..
uhmmm went to watch

Battleship

 yeahh.. hmmm nothing much to say on this one.
Good story, nice graphics, interesting take on the original Battleship game.
8/10

Lockout


Good storyline, nice graphics.
cool characters and a story with a starting and an ending, no cliffhangers.
8/10


Cabin In The Woods
 

Its genre is horror.. BUT it felt more like a comedy..
or rather a Scooby Doo rip off.. only without the dog. lol
horrible horror movie, good comedy:
5/10

cos I was looking forward to a horror movie.. not comedy



The Avengers

Its not bad.. i'd give it
7/10

The Hulk is awesome. LOL


Ghost Buddies

Malaysian movie, starring Mark Lee
Comedy.. funny... and lame :)
6/10


then at home i watched 3 more movies,


Intruders

Interesting Storyline, a little freaky.
A horror movie children would be able to watch :)
7/10

Shutter Island

Genre: Psychological/Thriller , starring Leonardo DiCaprio.
Its kinda creepy. I can imagine how nice it would be if i saw it at the cinema.
interesting storyline, freaky characters. a little confusing.
7/10
Only cos I've watched The Jacket, which for me is still the best Psychological film

Thir13en Ghosts

A classic, downloaded it cos my friend wanted to watch.
I loved this movie when it first came out. and rewatching it. made me love it just the same :)
Check it out. its a classic. and completely worth watching.
8.5/10

What I've learned from all the horror movies I watched is...

EVERY HORROR MOVIE WILL HAVE THAT SPECIAL MOMENT.

Every horror movie would always have that one moment when they give you the highest depth of horror in the film.
That one scene that would make you remember the movie for a very long time.

It could be a disgusting act, eerie makeup, freaking sound, watever. it will make you remember the film!

Here are some examples!
Dont read any further if you're screamish or scared :P
Also~ pictures aren't as scary as in the movie :)

Example 1: Mirror (2008), The girl who tore her own jaw off by reflection.

Example 2: The Shinning (1997 remake), The lady in the bath tub.

Example 3: Final Destination 3 (2006), Nailed by a nail gun.

 

Thats all For Horror!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


uhmm yeahhh... played and finished a new game.

Kingdom Of Amalur: Reckoning

Its fun and worth checking out.
But not fun enough to be re-played.
still worth playing tho.. Took me only a week to finish..
Comparing it to my one month of playing Skyrim... Reckoning has failed in comparison.
6/10


and that's pretty much it.
nothing new :)

BROKEN

In response to my previous post.

My group mate didn't their part of their assignment..
SOMETHING THAT SHOULD BE DONE A MONTH AGO..
Isn't Complete.

My whole time schedule of finishing all my assignments on time without stress completely messed up cos of the extra 3 hours I have to spend on this.

Now i reallyyyy feel like jumping off a mountain.
Seriously? seniors? so irresponsible? zz...

MOOD: UNHAPPY, On-the-verge-of-breaking-down-completely

I'm what I've overcome

So its already the Thursday, my semester ends tomorrow (Friday). Yessss~
Cant wait for holidays..

Uhmm so I went for the tuition teaching on tues.
LOL only had 2 students mmhmm..
Its fun in its own sense. but its a little weird.
Knowing that the students are well, about 3 - 7 years younger than me only :\
But anyway its a good experience..
Tho, seeing the level of english of secondary students nowadays.
Its kinda.... uhmm unnatural.
Its like I completely don't understand what teachers are teaching their students in school nowadays.
Its fun in its own way. Abit stressful when seeing their standard.
I mean seriously, how can you improve a person's language...
It improves from daily activities, the more u do it, the more you understand it.
So i just gave them a short essay and some objective questions to do on the first day.
Communication ain't bad, i mean at least they ask whatever they don't understand.
But, I've been thinking after that lesson that maybe I'm not cut out for the job. ahaha!
I've never been that great of a teacher.
I mean the only thing I taught someone that ended up being a success was drawing ._.
English is like.. uhhh kind of hard to teach.
That and being called "老师" sends chills down my spine. LOL!
I'm not that old! :( ahahaha!
Uhh yeahh.. I'll probably stick to it for about a month and see how it goes first. :)

In other news, today is the animation presentation!
COMPLETELY UNSURE OF MY GROUP'S PROCESS ON THE ASSIGNMENT.
Hope its finished on time. our all of us is dead.
I really don't understand why must it be group work :(
I mean if it was for report i understand, but for designs is a bit weird.
Considering the fact that everyone has their own way of designing their stuff.
There will be disagreement and consequences.
In group sometimes its hard for people actually learn for themselves,
instead lead them into the way of shoving their work to one of the group members.
I just really don't understand it.. but whatever.
Just hope it can be finished on time.
I don't care about it anymore.

ahhhhhhhh... so i guess you'd probably already know that I'm not feeling well lately.
I mean you can completely tell, from my previous blog post. ahaha
At some point, I feel like I could just go on top the highest mountain in kuching and jump off it.
Feeling the cool breeze, the fast altitude drop that makes it hard to breath and the ears to bleed, and just feel alive at that final moment before it all ends. :\

ahahaha! freakin negative eh? yeahhh...
Maybe I'd get a job as a Shinigami too :) that might be fun. lol~
I dont even know what i'm saying anymore. I'm just soo unstable lately.
I need a day to just completely breakdown into nothingness.
and find myself again the following days.
Like a snake shedding its skin after completing its digestion of its food.
I need the holidays to come... ASAP..
One more day to go... then I'd be able to just completely fall to pieces. :)

:) thats all i have to update. thanks for reading.



Fireflight - What I've Overcome..
This use to be my fav song of all time :) by one of my top fav Chiristan Rock Band.

If only you could see me yesterday, Who I used to be before the change.
You'd see a broken heart, You'd see the battle scars...
Funny how words can't explain, How good it finally feels to break the chains..
I'm not what I have done, I'm what I've overcome!

Mirror Mirror On the Wall...

Life works in mysterious ways.

I'm going to start working tomorrow. mainly just for experience.
As a english tuition teacher. lol~ I seriously feel a bit crazy to actually accept such a job o.O

Ahh anyway hmm.. I went for a movie last week :)
Mirror Mirror ahahax~ not a movie i'd usually watch but... okaye...
and then did most of my homework and assignment already.
Should be able to get everything ready for the pass up by week's end.
Soo yeah~ Its all good..

Uhmm i'm not sure what to write or say really..
I've been quite confused..
like saturday night, i broke down cos I was well u know emotional.
due to thinking too much i guess, the usual stuff like..
How did I end up like this~ even if I can have a great future will I have someone to share it with?
yeahh.... emotional.. My thoughts have been hectic.
But I guess that cant be helped.
Still waiting for that moment when I'd get through all this emotional phases and just get into an emotionless, no feelings, life.

I guess I kinda feel like I dont want to get too attached or close to people at this moment,
cos its like I'm gonna leave kuching soon, and leave malaysia soon too hopefully.
and thoughts like that makes me feel like I shouldnt get too attached,
or I might actually miss it here, or miss the people here, the places here.
I guess that's why i've been emotional lately eh.
All I do is focus on the bad points, because I don't want the good points to hold me down.

Forcing myself to suffer?
Oh yes I am. I just really hate it here, the memories. my past. oh gawd, i hate my past.
No amount of happiness or goodness of my present life can ever over weigh the weight of my past.
I wanna leave, I wanna get away. I want to start a new..

I remember when i was young, i thought of running away and living in a jungle or something. hehe. I guess maybe cos I watched peter pan when i was young. LOL!
But yeah, I always dream of running away.
I've always been the odd one out, ever since kindergarten all the way to lower secondary school.
For the way I talk, wrote, was... people were not ready for an emotional person like me I guess.
But now look at me, I'm one of the best in my class.
I have plenty of good friends. my life isn't that bad right now.
But still.. I want to leave it all behind, for a dream of living a new life.. :)

I just want to get away.. uhmm yeah.. thats pretty much it.. :)

Skip To The Ending?

Well.. its been a longggg time since my last blog post.. heh

I miss my bloggie..


Anyway~
I've been busy spending 80% of my time at college finishing up my assignment.
And now i'm actually almost done with it all, and with 2 weeks left to spare before the pass up date.
Feels like i'm already on holiday~
ahahaha Monday (9/4) was the last day i went out to my assignment with C.
Of course~ we ended up not doing it..
actually.. we ended up going for Sushi king bonanza around noon.
Walked around later on.. and ended up at star cineplex watching

"孩子不坏 We not naughty"
had fun laughing at the movie, uhmm yeahh.. ahaha~ its nice ya know?
finishing up assignments n hanging out with my best buddy in college relaxing in a cinema hall.
ahahah the movie is goodddd~ uhmm.. its a story i can relate... heh..
sighhh~ really really can relate. :( but i guess that's why its good :) mehh check it out yourself.

uhmm yeahh~
LAST WEEK~
hmm went for a few family dinners... uhmm
went to this cafe called, Railway, near my house o_O
which sold epic huge western burgers and fries, chicken chop etc.. and weirdly enough
japanese food as well as, chinese food. uhmm yeah..
But its cute little cafe.. lol~ tho its quite hard to find o__o!
definitely gonna head there again next time :D

Skip the next part if you're not into toy models :)

Last Monday after classes came home and went for guitar class.
after that me n feng headed over to HKT.. cos its been a long time since we last went there.
.__. and it completely overtook me.. cos..
they had the entire HG (1/144) Char mobile suits in stock D:

From Char's original Zaku
to his Z'gok
Gelgoog
Sazabi

But of course i'll be going to KL end of month, so the prices for these stuff there are cheaper.
mehh we'll see... :)




Last thursday, me n C did our assignment from 8am - 9pm.
kinda torturing our lecturer with questions before she leaves for her thailand holiday.
around 5pm, we headed home awhile before coming back for the night class.
got to meet up with Grace. lol! its like been a longggg time since i last chat with her.
I think it was like my first semester that i actually talked to her.
till now which is like my 3rd last semester. O.O
so yeahh~ chatted about random stuff.. including Titanic 3D -_-
ahahaha~ not an interesting topic, but surprisingly she likes titanic.
And was asking for people's opinion cos everyone says its a waste of money.
uhmm~ i gave her the same comment. :X wahaha~
For good friday and easter weekend.
uhmm yeahh... i spent it doing my assignments :(
but its all worth it :)


hmm~ i guess thats it... Havent had the chance to meet up with MY yet. :(
hope i get the chance soon~~ ahaha. :B hopefully this holidays? xD
uhmm my twin's bday is next week ~_~ still not sure what to do :S
la la la~~ loads of movies coming up that i wanna watch~

Games

uhmmm hmmm~ ohhh! Bought a bunch of classic games simply because they're cheap and I need something to do for my 2+month holidays ( I LOVEEE NOT HAVING EXAMS!).
Such as

Rogue Galaxy

Which is a Role Playing Game, but its about Space pirates, so the whole setup just makes me think of..... Treasure Planet XD which is just awesome!



Uhmm its actually quite hard to play, but the storyline isn't bad.
The english dub isn't that bad either.
and it comes with a large group of weird yet interesting characters.


So overall its good and worth playing.. and of course a good time consumer.
No where near the best PS2 RPG~ PERSONA tho..
But lets face it, nothing can compare to that xD


2ndly I got this cuteee game called
OKAMI

which the graphics is drawn with those chinese paint brushes
and they talk in echoed gibberish.. and with cute japanese spirit characters.
Its the story of how the wolf spirit Okami fights again the evil snake demon Orochi.
One of the oldest Japanese myth ever. :)

3rd we have
Armored Core
A robot fighting game.. this one is reallyyyy hard to play..
But uhmm its still nice? ahaha.. havent really played it yet.
Been too hooked onto Rogue Galaxy.

And finally we got,
State Of Emergency 2


which is kinda like a comic book style of Grand Theft Auto.
But with more storyline and style.. and its more arcade style above all else.
A good game to just get into and whack the heck out of officers and gangsters.



OVERALL

I think thats pretty much it.. :)
ahaha~ I still get sad from time to time..
But overall I'm still content with my life...
Still unsure of what the future holds... But for right now.. its not half bad..
I still get lonely at times :( but thats unavoidable i guess?

I'm kinda just hope feelings like this go away in time..
I dont say it openly but my mind has been set on the fact that maybe;

Happiness is just an illusion.
Which makes me feel as though nothing is really important anymore.

aha~ :) thats all i have to post..
Thanks for reading ^^







EXTRA

Oh, last month.. Poema had a Q&A video,
they posted on facebook asking people if they had any questions they want answered.
I posted asking them,

"what kind of guys do you 2 like? or is it all completely the same as the song boys and bugs?"

and they answered it in their video :) ahahax~ its kinda cute how they answered xD
and actually reminded of my mabz cos we chatted about the same thing at that time.

Check it out.



For those who dont know the song;
Boys and Bugs by Poema

LYRICS:

Verse 1:
I like boys that like to smile
and laugh at themselves once in a while
that can sit and talk for hours
and in the morning, pick me flowers
boys that like to be very clean
that are never ever mean
and can tell a witty joke
boys that do not like to smoke

Chorus:
One day I'll find you (X4)

Verse 2:
I like boys that aren't afraid of bugs
that will always give me big warm hugs
like to sing and play guitar
that are happy being who they are
boys that like to be outside
and that aren't full of pride
boys that have an honest passion
with at least a slight hint of fashion

Verse 3:
Boys that are funny and artistic
that are mostly optimistic
boys that are not very lazy
a little weird but not too crazy
boys that aren't afraid to cry
that will always give a second try
and will try to do their best
i want a boy not like the rest

The Hunger Games

Alright..!
so I skipped my class field trip yesterday (friday) and lost a total of 2marks for 2subjects.. ahaha
But for 22bucks for a BBQ field trip to Matang Family Park? soooo not worth it~

But before i get to that, I went for my lecturer's consultation class on wed.
cos C as me to~ lol just to follow her to the bank and stuff -_-
*feels like a pet* ahaha.. but it was totally nice to just hang out with my only best friend in my whole MM course. ehehe..
We hanged out. went to 2 banks, chat about random stuff. Joke about random songs and ate buns. and even joke about the song they put on at the Hills carpark like... wth? horror movie?
They had those underground goth music playing like some zombie horror movie..
ahaha... anyway I guess i really loveee her as a friend. I mean she's really one of my besties liao.

YAY!
Oh... lately i got back into contact with my ex as well as my bf.. ahaha
Blurfriend.. its been soo long since I've chatted with either one of them..
Its nice.. i mean to have my highschool bestfriend to chat with, even for awhile.
and know that the care and friendship is still there strong as ever is just.. amazing.
As well as being able to talk to my ex with a straight face and as the friends we use to be...
yeah... moments like that are worth alot... :)

Okay. so back to the 22bucks.. instead of going to the fieldtrip.
what I did with my 20bucks..?
I went for the 2nd LoL competition held at Gizmo.
starting with the 1v1 matchup.
Ate a cheeseburger at Sugar Bun for lunch/dinner at around 4.
Had a random champion all-mid battle with my team.
and earned a total myself 8-ip boost and an LoL Limited Edition Lanyards
Although we didn't enter any of the top3, it was totally worth the experience.
After that we just hanged out and chat awhile..

When to spring at around 8.
Bought tickets for The Hunger Games (10:20 showing)
Friends had dinner at the food court at around 9, chatted abit about random stuff.
Jokes and other random stuff.. I however bought my food from the supermarket.
ahahaha.. a Mars bar and a bottle of Mountain Dew.
Yeahhh~ the best thing to cure my emo-ness..
Sweet chocolate and sour fizzy drink. wheee~
heaven? oh soo close to it~
and then bought some popcorn for the movie.
yay~ Definitely more worth it than some lame bbq :P
*pokes lecturer* LOL not that she reads my blog... i think? :x
la la la~

REVIEW ON THE HUNGER GAMES?

I can now fully understand why they say it was a 90% off the original book.
It lasted a freakin 2hr 10mins.. which is a total epic win for a 11bucks ticket.
woots~ it finished at around 12:30+.. ahaha so yeahh~
Definitely worth it~ gawd... the storyline is just good..
and it makes me feel and wish soo badly that other book-based movies were defined as well (Twilight *cough*) LOL!
This one is really.... woowww...
Well worth it.. I cant explain it at all~ gahh~
It has romance, suspense, thriller, sci-fi, a little cliche but overall a very far-range mix of a movie.
I may have never read the book, but damn the movie was worth watching. a total must watch!
I know on youtube and all over the web people are like making fun of this movie or making parodies of it.. for i dunno wat reason.. cos to me, it was really good..
but i guess everyone's open to their own ideas. :)
Personally to me, my rating is;
9/10
.. a totally must watch.. not disappointing at all...
Except maybe the camera angle.. especially when the girl from another district was fighting the main character... yeah.... that camera angle kinda sucked. lol
other than it, it was good.. :)
Totally waiting for the 2nd movie to release. November 2013? nooo thats too long to wait :(


Anyway, i had an amazing day..
its what i needed really..
I mean after being emo and depress the past few days..
I needed the release..
Its nice to hang out with my mates~ and its nice to see how happy they are. lol!
Though, I still get the feeling of wanting to have a person.. a lover by my side too :(
But i guess that's only natural.. sigh~ but anyway~
Its nice to just go out and have fun for one whole entire day.
without thinking. without worrying. and just full of enjoyment.
oh and not forgetting~ its damnnn nice to have people following me watch movies i wanna watch \m/!
Even if it means watching it till reaching home at 1:30 in the morning.
Woo~~ahahaha
I'm soo hyped!

Totally one of the best day I've had this year.. :)

Sleepless nights

"I want so much to open your eyes, 'Cos I need you to look into mine"
- Snow Patrol

Ahh soo the 3v3 League Of Legends competition on saturday was a bust,
lost at the first round to the group that got 2nd place in the end..
mmhmm.. bad luck i guess.

This was the scoreboard:
http://challonge.com/loltttgizmo2012

My team name was ForFun, Cos' that was t. :( he main reason we joined..
Experience..

The 5v5 competition still hasn't been confirm yet, I hope it happens...
but then its on my class field trip day.sad case..
But then I'm not in the mood to go anyway... eheh..

Anyway...
lately I havent been sleeping well..
ahaha.. I dunno what's wrong really, thinking too much i guess.
I had a nightmare 2days ago..
It was like a horror movie.. ahaha...
Of how people you see everyday may not be people at all.
But a specter a spirit.. an unrest..
And every night when the moon is full these spirits whispers their deepest thoughts to the ones closest to them.. whether good or bad they are there..
In my dreams there were,
people were saying that during the days they slumber they sleep inside the trees..

So thats a freaky thought.. How trees are actually haunted spirits.... heh..
And how late in the night they speak to selected people in silence..
The death of many was caused by these whispers of the dead..

And it's shown me how abnormal I am to have weird dreams like these :\ ..
"Somewhere between dream and reality.. I lost myself."

Last night I had another dream.. It was more on world balance though..
It was like saying you will always gain if u lose something in return.
It wasn't really a dream or a nightmare is like my inner thoughts were just battling each other.
ahaha.. I wasn't even sure if I was asleep or thinking out loud.. hmm

I guess... her passing had a big impact on me... sigh..
I dont even know how to recover from this...
I mean... Its just hard.. :\
And no matter how i look at it.. I just dont know how to get over it..
However, these emotions that's been eating me the last few days have produced an artwork of pure..... loneliness?


A Love Lost
Pieces Of A Broken Heart (picture 1)

The numbers actually represents the number of lost lovers.. i think?
The comb is a symbol of unity, you know its the way how Asian use to propose to their beloved.
The broken leaf shape thingy is a shard of a broken heart.
The stars represents unreachable dreams and the sea pretty much means loneliness...
ahaha.. it's not a happy picture at all.. :(
I'm not happy at all... sigh..


Tell me that you'll open your eyes .... :(

Memories

I've got a competition in an hour's time.. :\
Not sure if me and my team can win it or not tho.. sigh~
anyway just blogging before I leave.

I was pretty much reminiscing about the past last night.
And how some things I didn't take advantage of until it was too late.
You know the feeling where an opportunity comes and you didn't take it and finally you regret it?
yeah.. that's the feeling I get, along with wondering what could have come of it if I did or would it had change anything at all..
Or rather why didn't I take the chance. The most common and logical explanation would be because I was still young and didn't know what to do at the time.
ahahaha... not that age really matters in anything :S



I wish I could tell you these feelings of mine,
But time has already drifted us very far apart.
And I'm sure no good will come out of the words I wish to say.

What ever the case, the past cannot be change.
Which is why these memories are ones I wish to have forgotten.
I guess that's one of the reasons why I want to leave here more and more badly.
The more I stay, the more memories I create, the more painful it is to stay.
I wanna leave, forget everything, start a new..

This life, as nice and peaceful as it maybe..
Isn't what I want for myself..
I want something more.. I need something more..



"I cant change history, but history is what's changin' me"

So.. leaving for Japan in the coming years is what I've plan to do..
ahahahax..

Broken Wings

Its been awhile since my last post..
A lot has happened in the pass few weeks..
exactly 1 week ago.. last friday.


Ayuko has passed away.
I got to chat to her a final time a week before she left.
I feel bad that I couldn't be there for her.
but this isn't a fairytale and i cant just magically appear to her.
But she knew that, and she didn't expected me to.
Our last moments in chatting was really full of love and sincerity.
I wish it could've last longer..
I wish things didn't end the way it did..
At the end of it all, this fate couldn't be changed.
I accepted that fact..
For those of you who dont know,
she was suffering from cancer since young..
and it finally caught up to her.

Although I miss her..
I'm glad that she was happy during her final hours.
and the way she is really touched me..
Everything happens for a reason..
I really fell in love with her..
Although it lasted a month+, we really connected.
she was a really amazing person, and will forever hold that special place in my heart.
:| I really miss you...

Aha.. her words that would forever say with me are;
"You will always be an angel in my fairytale ne, And i feel this way give a fairytale more beautiful ending than painful one . ."

Rest In Peace..




I guess that's been the highlight of my entire month.. heh..
The rest are all assignments,
I've been super busy with my assignments,
constantly going out with my coursemates to finish them..
at that time Ayu was already at the hospital..
but i managed quite well.. finished all my assignments,
even with everything going on..
I guess being around friends helped me through it easier..
I dont regret ever meeting her..
And this doesn't affect my plan to go Japan in the near future in anyway..
In fact.. it made me want to go there even more..
Although it isn't what i expected as a first date..
I would love to visit the town she grew up in..
heh.. :\ ahh~
I dont know what more to write..
I'm sick due to lack of sleep.. and everything..
so thats it for now...
will post a more detailed update on my life on later days.

For now..
Thanks for reading ^^

Togetherness

"Look Into My Eyes"

Ghost Rider 2 released last thurs :D
went to watch on the day of release with my buddehs!
and yeah, its definitely better than the 1st one. ahahahax
and it actually made me wish Ghost Rider would appear in the upcoming
Avengers movie.
anyway~ as you know Ghost Rider is a comicbook anti-heroic hero.
a person possessed with the spirit of vengeance and what not.
And the fights are all more religious than other comic books, what with having demons, lucifer, angels. etc. etc.
mehh! yeah so this movie, goes more in-depth into the original Ghost rider character story.
which is good cos it made a fan out of me XD
ahahax totally worth watching, despite the slight annoying camera angle sometimes
though I think that's due to it being filmed for 3D..
So if you're gonna watch it, you should definitely watch it in 3D
overall its good~ and Nicolas Cage is just a great actor.

8.2/10


oh right, the days before thursday i didnt do anything except..
uhmm.. gaming, schoolwork, reading books, watch a couple of movies.
("Friends With Benefits" , "The Rum Diary" & started a Japanese-Drama "First Kiss")

But before I continue with reviewing,
I'mma talk about my weekend xD
I went out with my Sisters last sat, nothing much really.
Just went to eat and chat at hills. lol.
-_- they eat ALOT. ahaha... or maybe i just eat to little..

uhmm anyway!
Gave my farewell gift to "Destiny" and hope she has a safe trip to Taiwan,
that is if i dont get to see her before she leaves end of month.
Also finally passed the belated x-mas gift to "Aoi",
lol, she practically wanted to scream when she saw it.
ahaha! I gave her, a deck of cards that had pics of Kuroshitsuji on it.
just to fuel her fan-girlism. I actually didn't expected her to get soo high over it.
mehh! they were something like these. lol


mmhmm, we chat about a bunch of random stuff really -_-
ate Japanese food for dinner.. and I had my fav. Purple dream at kimbay.
so yeah.. I spent all my cash tat day. $__$ lol
still its nice to see them~
especially since both of them will be going out of town soon :(
of course, I'd be moving overseas eventually too...
It just felt abit sad, ahahax..



Bahh~ :)
Oh oh! this morning, I was woken up by a freaking nightmare .__.
which for me is really rare for a nightmare to scare me to not want to continue sleeping.
ahaha... It was a dream of my old high school!
arrived earlier, then everyone there was freaking out..
The guard at the gate was all skin and bones with pure white eyes..
then there was a student hanging on one of the classroom door but nothing was holding him up,
and he was like screaming "I dont want to die, I dont want to die"
The teachers were trying to get him down, but he was kicking and screaming like crazy.
Eventually everyone was moved to aside and back to their classrooms. when on the way,
Everyone was freaked out by 3 cats that pass through the hallway,
They were huge.. as in like 2/3 human height. when standing on all four legs.
one had small eyes, fat, was white with light brown patches, with the happy cute cat mouth.
while another had messy and dirty fur, of color darkbrown and grey, with small circular yellow eyes.
The 3rd one was skinny with long legs, black and white in color, with sharp golden eyes, with a look as fierce as a lion..
But like normal cats they just walk pass the hall ignoring everyone there.
As everyone was continued to be pushed to the class, eventually I got into my class too.
the teacher began teaching, then there was a scream at the back of the class.
students were scared and shock, as the huge white n brown cat came into the classroom.
It sat down next to my seat, staring at me, with no meow, nothing.
I thought it was a sign of acknowledgement.
Actually it made me wanted to pet it, so i pet it's head, thinking... "Why me?"
then I woke up..
and all that was left in my blank sleepy head was...

how freaky the cat looked!!!
then i couldnt go back to sleep -_-
meaning i was half asleep during my full day classes.. ahaha!
aiks... cats.. lol



Uhmm yeah..
So anything my review
The Rum Diary

This movie is interesting.
Its in one of those classic style. its about the life of a journalist.
And Johnny Depp be that journalist. ahahahax.
Its a very slow-pace classic type of film.
And actually it is interesting in it's own way.
I can name alottt of movies which are better than this.
But in it's own way it is unique.
I dont know how to explain it..
it's just... interesting.
and it leaves me speechless.. LOL
Just like what it says on the poster;
"Absolute Nothing In Moderation"
6.8/10



Friends with Benefits
Romantic comedy, starring Justin Timberlake.
it's quite alright, it has good storyline.. i guess.
Acting is definitely good.
and basically it's about how much a random relationship can grow.
ahaha... It isn't as nice as all the other romantic comedy out there.
So it's just one of the romance to pass the time.
Unless of course u're a fan of Justin Timberlake or Mila Kunis

overall, its okay;
6.7/10


Last but not least
The drama i've been watching.
First Kiss
This is a japanese drama basically about siblings. ahaha
And it definitely somehow reminds me of my girlfriend and her bro.
its a really good drama, storyline isn't bad, acting is nice.
The story is about Mio a girl with a heart-disease that decided to undergo a dangerous operation.
But before she gets the surgery, she made a deal with the doctors to let her have fun for the rest of the Summer, and go back for the surgery afterwards.
During this break, she moved back to Japan and lives with her brother. :)
And then that's when the story starts, comedy, romance, sadness, happiness, etc.
loads of emotions, and with good acting and plot.
Makes it very nice.
Overall all good.
8/10


and I think that's it..
:) ahahax. so yeah! my life is going great!
I cant wait to finally graduate and start living my future life.
As it seems, within all the disasters and wasted time.
I found.. Hope. :)
I hope and dream of a beautiful future a head ^^
Fight-o!
Thanks for reading !