FAILED TRIP

wheee~yesterday, Marcus picked me at around 3:30, went to Shaamil's house.
we talked abit while waiting. LOL!
kinda dull really. x_X
went on our way to mcD at around 3:40+
reach around 4:30.
Had mcD breakfast meal.
chat and talk summore. then a few minutes before 5.
Lady Gaga walked into the place.
and were like chatting on FB about hw crazy it is to see lady gaga at mcD at 5am!
LOL! Actually it was just a wannabe la. but still. :S crap!
I guess only freaks go mcD eat at 4:30+ in the morning. :B
ROFL! awesome!
Started moving at around 5+
road to Sematan damn dark at that time. xD cant see the road at all actually.
Very nice experience. I love it o__O! the whole driving in the dark thing.
LOL especially when the winding roads got holes.
lalala~ anyway! at around 6+am.
I felt a strange presence when looking out the window staring at the forest.
It was like, there was a eerie sense of calm and peace mixed with disturbing insecurity.
yes I made a mental note so I can post that part out. LOL!
anyway~ reached the town area of sematan at around 6:30+. talked.
went kopitiam, drink and waste time awhile.
around 7:30. went open beach to rest awhile more.



Then went into palm beach at around 8.
paid 5 ringgit entrance fee each to get in.
At first everyone was still okay and active.
then after awhile of playing and talking.
Like about 10am. everyone started to get tired.
and wondering when are the others getting here.
then finally everyone felt tired of waiting and almost feel like dying.
lol.. i think we waited from 8 till 1+ before Stella and the rest reached.
they called Valerie and found out the registration was under her Husband's name. shyt.
LOL! so we went to our room, then plan to go bbq.
we took the stuff, and went bbq. marcus was tired so he went to sleep instead.
the bbq failed cos, someone forgot to bring the fan and clippers. =.=
and the fire wont start. and when we started it, it started to rain.
then Elton, Miguel and Jarvis gave up and went to swim in the rain.
Left me and Shaamil at the pondok. LOL!
i just sat around and stared at the sea & feeling the breeze really.
While he was still busy attempting to start the fire.
which eventually he did! despite the rain.
LOL! and cooked the food.
ate abit. the rest came to join. cept elton.
around 3pm after eating went back to our rooms and rested awhile.
bathed and chatted awhile. then everyone died off in bed. LOL!
I tried to sleep but couldnt.
ended up listen to songs on my phone till 6+
tried to call the rest up for dinner, but no one woke.
So i ended up going for dinner with Stella, Callie, Justin & Edwin.
Who were living next door.
The dinner isnt that great, even though its buffet. LOL!
well to me la, nothing special really. chatted and ate abit.
And thats pretty much it.
After eating went back to the rooms, Marcus was still awake then.
LOL but the rest was still asleep, woke them up and then they went to eat.
I spent my time with Justin and the rest in the room next door.
Playing card games. LOL! soo random.
After that went into Treasure hunt event.
Kinda stupid. But still ok la. xD
teamed up with the seniors and Callie for the event.
duhh~ finished the first part fast.
2nd part also not bad. blah blah blah.
Overall lost the game to another group.
But the prize was only junkfood, wtf.
LOL! then went back to rooms.
bathed awhile. chat and filmed abit.
blah blah blah nothing much really.
around 11+ I went next door again.
waste time talking and playing cards.
While my group on the other side wanted to bbq!
but then they found out they lost the bbq stove. WTF!
so ended up they cooked the sausages using the water boiler in the room.
O_O! wtf! LOL! while me in the other room, played cards, ate junk food.
and they chia me cup of mee. LOL! :)
Soo nice~ thankius! :X LOL!
anyway! played till 1+.
I went back to my room, to rest awhile.
Couldnt sleep still tho.
at around 3+am Callie msged, she couldnt sleep either.



we ended up hanging out and walking around the area for awhile.
before going back to the terrace to sit in the living room talking about random stuff.
Not bad to actually hang out and talk :)
actually its nice to have someone to really talk and have open-heart conversation with.
very far range of topics la xD but mostly about relationships, guys and gals, and gays?
LOL.. yeahhh~ damn random. xD
we went out for abit again at around 5+, nothing much to do again.
She finally felt tired so went back to the terrace to sleep,
and i found my houseroom door locked! and can guess who locked it.
LOL! elton. ==! so ended up crashing at next door living room xD
but i still couldnt sleep. :S
till 6+ then next door people all woke d.
went in, rest awhile while everyone else sleep.
duhh, of course spending one whole night out,
would earn me a bunch of random bullying by them.
sigh! LOL!
endured. :\ later on went for breakfast at around 8am.
then 9 back room, uhh the rest went beach.
I went to lie down for an hour.
then we went on our way back home d. :)
Finally slept in Marcus's car. LOL!
reach home.
straight into bed and slept from 1:30 till 10pm xD
awesome!
ate, bath, fb. then went back to sleep at 1am till 9 am. :)
shud be enuf sleep d la..
ahahahax.. fun... xD
I love my friends!
& I love staying up late at night.
ah! i think if i can, I wouldnt wanna sleep at all. :\
so yeah! thats pretty much my trip..
TRAGIC. like everything we wanna do = fail.
Even the video part.
the place wasnt as big or as fancy or watever as we planned it to be.
So cacat. so we gonna use all the random photos and vids taken as our video.
FAIL!.
100ringgit paid for nothing much. :S
and thats it. I do however love learning more about the people around me.
:) tats always nice.

Its almost 2am!

So I'm like sitting here waiting,
For the time to pass,
Waiting for the clock to strike 3.
For me to leave this place at last.
I wish I dont have to come back,
But I do, Bahh!
A day that begins at 3am, how long can you last?

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Well, My life has been, hmmm FUN
LOL! going out later. yay! cant wait.
I'ma gonna go psycho from not sleeping. but who cares!
ROFL! x)
Uhh uhh!
Loving New Band!

they called;
The Bawdies!
1. they are not bald.
2. they are a japanese blues band
3. they sing in english




thats pretty much it.
Lovin their beatles kind of style, Soo classic! ehehe LOVE!


Thats pretty much it? Damn what a boring post.
Ahahax.
Assignments all the lecturers postpone till the following week then dateline.
So I have plenty of time to finish everything. yay?
Still havent had the chance to see/meet up with Lydia and Vivian in SEGi
hmmm! ahahax
Next semester. gonna have History Of Arts. AGAIN!
Which is still making me think that all the New students that just joined SEGi arts faculty
are gonna end up quitting college or go gaga in the next semester.
LOL!

Random note;
I'm seriously hating people who talk bad about others,
When knowing they're doing exactly what they're badmouthing at others.
Damnnn, pathetic syok. Even worse!
I met a few guys lately, that loves to fight and argue and find problems.
just because of a brokenheart. If you're still alive and gonna cry over a gal who left,
at least be nice about it when you're hanging with someone else.
Channeling it all into anger against everybody on earth is wayyyyyy over the line.

Sad case.
I mean, I know i aint perfect. But.. Seriously? what have i ever done to you? o__o!
duhh.. ahahax
that aside.
i'm lovin all the people around me more and more.
learning more and more about each individual each day.
And thats something interesting!
woooo! 3am! why are you taking soo long D;

Oh! chatted with BF just now. Yay?
Havent chatted with her in awhile, tho she left soon after.
meano! :( lol.. +u in your studies! xD

And as the saying goes;
'Darkness Does Not Always Equate To Evil, Just As Light Does Not Always Bring Good.'

most things are never as they seem.
When the time is right, and the world starts to crumble,
Everything will be made clear.

God is Good. God is Awesome. God is Just. God is Fair. God is Loving. God is Caring. God is Everlasting.

Tho at times; we might feel
God is cruel, sometimes He makes you live (Stephen King)

and as true as that maybe. Despite the suffering and pain of life.
It's better to be good than evil, but one achieves goodness at a terrific cost. (Stephen King)

He Contradicts himself! LOL!... in the end.
Life is basically =
You're born. You suffer. You die. Fortunately, there's a loophole. (Billy Graham)

Yes i'm in love with all the creative quotes of the literal art.
here's one of the best thing ever said :)

Were I called on to define, very briefly, the term Art, I should call it 'the reproduction of what the Senses perceive in Nature through the veil of the soul.' The mere imitation, however accurate, of what is in Nature, entitles no man to the sacred name of 'Artist.' (Edgar Allan Poe)

Thus i AM an ARTIST. :)
Awesome! ahahax
Gawd! I Miss You... :( sigh! I miss you badly.
SIGH! 3am still soo far off.

Minutes To Midnight

First off, A biggg happy birthday to my awesome sis. :)

Havent Been Doing Much Lately..
Actually Been Sort of dead lately.
Sigh!
I keep being reminded of the past.
Memories why do you haunt me so?? T~T
yeahhh..
been thinking too much again.
SIGH! :\
"Author Of The Moment, Can You Tell Me?
Do I end Up, Do I End Up; Happy??"



Anyway,
Today was the Principles Of Marketing Presentation.
ahahax, Pressca (the lect.) commented on my outfit looking nice.
Goodie. LOL! x)
overall it was okayy so yay?
Especially even though when I'm having sore-throat and flu.

my playlist through out the whole day was SuckerPunch OST.
LOL! I'm loving those weird music! xD

Bahhh, All my assignments due next week.
Going Sematan at 3am this Friday.
Gotta speed up all my work and finish it ASAP.
And then voula, everything will be more relaxing xD
going to KL on the 21st may.
Gahhh! soo much things to do.

And overall life is okay.
Tho... I still cant help but think something is missing :(

So,
Dear God, Often I Wonder;
What Were You Thinking When You Created Me?


and on a random note,
I seem to like gals with light blonde hair. x)
ah hell, I like guys with light blonde hair too.
ROFL! its a nice color xD
ROFL! totally and utterly random :)

Love Is The Drug

Yesterday night

went out with the gang to watch Sucker Punch. :)
Ahahax, Its really really nice.. altho my friends all didnt understand the storyline.
Actually loads of people complained about the story.
D: Which to me, was actually good.
Oh hell!
The movie was Directed, Produced & Written by Zack Snyder.
Thats saying something. LOL!

To people who dont know, He was the director for 300


as well as the 3D animated movie Legend Of The Guardian
So yeah! I'm liking his style :)
Although He also has really sucky movie like... Watchmen. EWW! :X
So Anyway!
I like the whole Sucker Punch storyline.
And also the entire Movie Soundtrack (of which i'm downloading now)
ahahax.. It's well good...
Even the starting where the movie had;
Sweet dreams playing as background music.
Thats always, nice.. :X
And seriously, I guess i like the soundtrack cos
I use to be really into the whole, Underground Goth music blah blah style. LOL!
So yeahhh.
Oh! I love movies about Crazy people. x)
I think I've made that clear.
ahahax, And if the movie shows what mentally ill patients are actually thinking/daydreaming about. Then... Wowww~ Reality is soo boring compared to it. :X
Still I like the whole;
You own the world, you are your own weapon etc.
ehehehe cos I guess that's something I can relate to. cos I think like that most of the time anyway! xD


My Rating = 8/10

It would had been better to actually see the gal dance x__X!
thats the only disappointment. I think... well for me anyway xD
I mean at least the movie is making a clear statement of;
"No matter how broken a person is, they're still human"
tho I think lots a people didnt catch that point while watching the movie :S
In fact, I didnt expect the story to be in this style. ROFL!
But since it is, I enjoyed it xD
Tho my friends were just okay by it.


Oh yeah, the main actress Emily Browning still looks freaky to me :\
I mean she's pretty, but still she looks freaky to me :|
But then tis be the 2nd movie I watched, with her acting as a mentally unstable.
So I guess, she looks the part. bahhh! freaky.







Thats pretty much it.. LOL! I dont wanna give too much review cos there're still people who havent watch the movie :)

NIGHTMARES!

Had a continuous nightmare last night..
Like got it, shocked, woke up, went back to sleep and it continued. LOL..
3times straight through the night. :\
Twas first about ghosts.. well peaceful spectres who looked totally "eww".
But harmless. but still. gross. anyway..
twas in a house, and I was with my friends.
and we met the ghostly child o__o! so yeahhh. freaky. then he disappeared.
There was a knock at the frontdoor afterwards.
We went towards the door. And tried to open it..
But it was stuck. As if locked. We tried pulling it open.
Just to pull back a few moments later as the wooden door glowed.
It turned into a mirror. But it didnt reflect anything..
it was pitch black.
Then I looked into it and saw one of my friend's reflection.
But not truly his, but a more pale, ghostly version..
My friends behind me saw it too, He then walked towards his ghostly reflection.
And the Horror movie cliche happened. He got pulled into the mirror by his own image.
And then the door turned back to normal.

Woke up after that..
Went back to sleep.
part2.
It continued after the doorknock, my friend was still there at that time.
Kinda like you reloaded a save file :S
so, doorknock. Wanted to open it but again it was stuck.
But then the door shook.
We all backed away.
And suddenly 3spectres walked through the door.
one fat, one skinny, one moderate.
I dont remember their dead faces, so I cant describe.
They hissed out a "hello"
and the skinny one pulled out a switchblade,
and stuck it on my friend nearest to him.

woke up again.
ah hell, went back to sleep.
part 3.
Twas about Demons now! wooowww
We were on a road trip me and my friends.
(it was kinda like MCR's Nanana song theme. as in the whole desert scene kind of thing)
So yeah... car broke down halfway.
We tried restarting it but couldnt.
There wasnt any phone signal on anyone's handphone.
Tried pushing the car, but it was damn hot.
So we decided to just walk to the closest repair shop in that area.
Whats weird was everywhere was soo empty and deserted.
Then as we were walking, one of my friend was falling behind.
We looked back to see him standing still.
We asked him what's wrong but no response.
then he fell to the ground. arms wrapped around his body, as if trying to hold himself together.
We walked closer only to see his skin ripped apart. and turned inside out, before exploding.
(EWWWW)
Anyway, There was a shadow in the background, I couldnt see his face or whatever.
But he had a very very scary grin.
And after that I woke up completely.
Not wanting to sleep again for the night.

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LOL! So yeah! I didnt rest at all last night! ISH!!
Its.. kinda interesting.
But still ewww. :\
oh! the friend taht died wasnt the same one in any of the 3dreams.
each one different person... uhh yeahhh..
So anyway..
I guess I havent been that well lately...
I feel like I might be getting sick.
Sigh! I hope not though...
SIGH! I dont know isit due to the nightmares or what.
But I really dont want to get sick.
So am going to sleep right after this post x)
I havent been doing much lately.
Just assignments assignments assignments

Went to church last sat, we all did the whole Prayer Competition thing :)
It was nice... Well actually.. to be perfectly honest, Being on stage feels nice.
ahahahax after service we grouping celebrated
HuiTing's bday :) along with Winnie's Belated Bday


Did I mention; I Love My CellGroup? Yeahh! I love my CG! xD
Although I cant help but think we all can still grow closer as a group somehow. :S


Anyway! The day after that, went to Pastor. Paul Ang's Service
All I can remember is his cute smile; and his phrase for the sermons
"Are You Bearing Fruits? If You Do Not Bear Fruits, Then You Are A Nut."
ROFL! Yeahhhh~
Which got me thinking about a bunch of random stuff.
And I think I really really got my future planned properly d.
All I need now is to work hard. :)
and hope its the path I'm suppose to be on.
Blah! ahahax :)


Anyway! going out later in the afternoon. MAYBE.
Hopefully it'd get my mind off all the weird things.
Mehhh!
Still lotsa people I wanna hang out with soon tho :\
that's pretty much it i guess.
OLIVE YOU ALL :B
rofl. I love this song more and more.

Olive you. xD
ahahahax.
Oh! I know how to play Jay Chou's "AnJing" on Classical Guitar :DDD yay!
ROFL! :x
But only the notes tho. :\
not the chords. cos I still not used to the whole notes+chords thing. :S


Oh! and did i mention my Guitar Teacher rocks?
not only is he an epicly awesome guitarist.
He's one charismatic dude. and can make good points when lecture.. I mean "talking" :X
Last sat during class, pretty much chatted with him.
Ahahahax xD
He was like talking about, how Graphics Design and Multimedia nowadays really mafan.
And should decide now, where to go after studying.
Since malaysian dont appreciate these kind of things much.
Then he pulled out an example.
his name card. He said it was made by his friend.
And charged him only 18ringgit for 100 of the namecard.
he said;
"Look at this namecard. It isnt great, but it cost only 18ringgit to have 100 printed out.
how do you think people like this can survive? I mean, if you go photostat the card 100 is like 20ringgit. How much can he earn really?"
and random stuff like that.
Which as well, got me thinking of my future more. ahahax so yeahh.
Been planning and thinking alot lately.

anyway! that's all.
Good Night Everybody.
xoxo. Love and Peace :)

Held A Little Too Tight

Ever feel like your life is hanging by a thread?
As if it was the only thing left for you to hold onto, if not you'd fall?
Well.. Experience has taught me holding too tight ain't the best option.
It seems as when you grow tired and weary, you'd begin to slip.
Eventually you'd lose your grip and get massive rope burns before as you fall slowly to rock bottom.
Letting go would have been a better option. But well, being human.
It seems we're always too prideful of ourselves and never wanting to let anything go.
That said,
Although these emotional scars may take a long time to heal.
There's something special about being at Rock bottom.
What is it?
A Solid Rock for which i lay down upon. Grieving my lost. Healing from the fall.
Perhaps one day I'd find the strength to reach the sky again?
Perhaps it would be a thread of a different kind that would lead me to the stars?
Whatever it may be, one day I shall reach the top of the earth.
For now, I shall rest and let the wounds heal.
Thanks you, for being my comfort.
Thank you, my sweet Solid Rock.