Side effects

Wow~ been having such a busy week~

bro going back to KL tomorrow, and I wont be seeing him again till his wedding ceremony end of year.

mmhmm~

had japanese food for dinner yesterday (26th July) 

went to Sanga Japanese Restaurant.

it was.. not bad, but not as good as Tarot Salmon (at Boutique Hotel)

but it was still good enough for a japanese restaurant.

mehh~ my bro asked me what was my plan for the future.

and after telling him a bunch of random options thats been going through my mind,

he said that since my dream was always to goto Japan, i should just go for it.

I guess at some point he's right,

I shouldnt be held back by a past I can no longer see or a future that no longer exist for me.

I should just move on. & just... go for what I want.. ne?

that's it rite? that's what I'm suppose to do?

yet why do I feel so uneasy..

I feel like there's still so much I have to do before I leave.

yet I dont know what, or why, or how..

too many broken relationships and friendships lying around here.

Should they be mended before I leave, or should I completely shut my hometown out of my life completely?

cos' as everyone knows, I never liked my life here.

never had, never will. Even though I've had good experiences, the ones that sprout out the most are the bad.

I've had good days out with close friends who I hold dear before,

yet all I remember of them now are how we grew apart but not the things that made us friends in the first place.

Have I fallen to such a depth of negativity that I can no longer see the good things in life?

or have I matured and understand how to accept reality as it is?

at any rate, last time my plan was to go to Japan once I have enough money to.

My brother however, helped me planned it out to a point where
I'd be able to move and live in Japan by 2015 with a stable life.

He was always better at detailed planning than my target and go with the flow style. LOL.

But yeah, with the way things is going, I should be able to meet the target by 2015.

Is this wise though?

I need a day out with some of my close friends soon i guess.. :\

Alyn coming back next month so thats a great big plus. 

Since she's always been a direct go for your dreams type person.

She'd probably say that the Japan by 2015 plan is solid good~

while others might say I should pray for God's guidance.

mehh.. for now I'll just try my best to hit the target I guess.
I'm feeling better after conveying my feelings here.

Anyway~

Today bought 2 new shirts. Dark Maroon and Dark brown.

for my bro's wedding dinner end of year. lol

Justin Timberlake styled shirts :|

ohh~ and 2 new pairs of awesome shoes :3 mmmm~

and now I'm halfway broke.. great.. :( 

but I guess its all good~

I might need those shirts in the future anyway.

aha..

Oh well~ 

Memories Of You

------------emotional breakdown------------

我知道你是怎么想的 

但是浪费太多时间可以失去了很多机会，使和平.

我真不希望我们永远有这种差距, 

如果我现在离开了，我永远不会回来了.

但...

没关系了. 

对不起，我永远也不能修复我带给你的痛苦.. 的伤口.

我所想要的只是让你快乐.. 为了你，我愿意做任何事.

也许 我从来没有清楚地表达我的感受.

也许 我们的爱情只是一个无望的梦想

也许, 我应该怜悯你不理解我是多么爱你..

或许, 我们太认识对方, 已经知道 对方与别人 可以有更好的生..

希望 你可以找到你自己的幸福快乐.

谢谢你  给了我许多美好的纪念

.. 我再也不会讲出这段感情了.

也许在另一个平行时空里，我们是在一起的。 

(quote from: 那些年，我們一起追的女孩)

真可悲, 不是在这一个时空里..

been~

My bro came back yesterday~

He got me a new 1TB Hard disk drive~ Yay~

and also~ I got myself a new Samsung Galaxy Express.

Its sufficient enough since I dont really use my phone much anyway. hah~

So didn't do much yesterday..

Today went to Logos Hope~

The floating book fair. LOL

the ship was wayyyyy hugeeeee, and all the foreigners volunteering in there were all friendly,

It sort of made me want to join them even more

(( See, the last couple of days I was looking through all the options I have for my future, but since even I cant be certain on which way would be the best way to go, I looked into a bunch of random things and thought of the best possible outcome of each options. joining Logos was one of those choices, i mean 1 - 2 years spent travelling from country to country to help the needy and living on a ship seems pretty intense and fun in its own way))

Soo yeahhh, I dont know what to do anymore..

sigh.. life use to be soo much simpler..

How I wish I could just grab a knife and stab my heart out..

cos' seriously, some of this 'living a life' thing just isnt worth the hassle..

mehh~ anyway enough about me..

after visiting le big book fair ship~

went to catch The Wolverine at MBO. 

It was.. bittersweet really..

Well the movie was great~ ( a lil disappointed that they didnt follow the cartoon series, but mehh still good)

though one thing sorta annoyed me was how the main actress had some resemblances to my ex-gf .

Aside from that~ the movie was excellent.

The Silver Samurai (the villain) was not what i expected really.

But damn it looked cool, either that or its just cos I loveee Japanese stuff :\

mehh!

cant wait for the next x-men movie now~

cant really give a proper review on this, since I'm quite an x-men fan. LOL! so yeahh..

8/10

and that's pretty much for my day today.. yes its a short post.

But I'm just tired and there's a lot going on with my mood lately.

Signing off~

Peace and Love readers :)

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" 如果  我还是爱着你，会改变什么吗？你会怎么办？"

当你不知道她的感受，  爱着她是最难的事。