Vintage Love

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That's the kind of Love I wish for.. u know the whole, rich and beautiful girl falling for the artistic guy who sells art by the street for 30bucks a piece. and when the girl meets him, they fall madly in love at the fountain at the town square.

The whole romance gig, in real life.. :) If only I could be that lucky.
Very often I feel that I was born into the wrong century. Simply because I still believe in true love and romance like that and my love for art.. Since in this modern world, Art and romance is easily overlooked.. Sad really.. :\

So... anyway my blog has been super duper emotional.. cos i've been super duper emotional... I'm feeling better now tho. Spent the last few days watching romance movies.. Surprisingly they help more than causing more pain.. ahaha :)

Gonna review them one by one ^^
Brace yourself there are alotttt :)




The Notebook (2004)
"I have a crush on your mind, I fell for your personality and your looks are just a big bonus"
This movie isn't that new, and its actually my 2nd time watching it. But I still love it. True love cant break 2 people apart :) I just love the whole setting in this story. And although the usual poor guy falling for rich girl, romeo and juliet story is really common now. Each one always have its own unique-ness and this one has one of the best. The Notebook, one of my favorite romance.
9/10




Because I Said So (2007)
" I love that you have this insane way of talking in circles that makes perfect sense."
I like this storyline to be honest, ahaha.. cos the girl ended up with an artistic guy :D hahas. IMDb Sypnosis of the story: A meddling single mother tries to set her daughter up with the right man so her kid won't follow in her footsteps.
And that's pretty much it. :) the whole story goes pretty lovely..
Stars: Diane Keaton, Mandy Moore, Lauren Graham, Piper Perabo
6/10




The Last Song (2010)
"Sometimes you have to be apart from the people you love, but that doesn't mean you love them any less, sometimes it even makes you love them more"

I love this movie, its very sweet.. and its the movie that made me love~ Miley Cyrus. She's awesome in this movie.. I love the soundtrack, the storyline and everything. Okay, I guess anything by Nicholas Sparks is amazing :) in books and in movies.
Amazing movie ~_~ nuff' said
9/10




Love, Wedding, Marriage (2011)
"The key to a successful marriage is to find those qualities that make you fall in love with your spouse again every day"
This movie is rather silly, but still a good movie to watch. Its about how a girl who tries to get her parents to not divorce while endangering her own marriage in the process. Its okay, but probably better to watch with a partner rather than alone.
But of course if you're a fan of Mandy Moore or Kellan Lutz, you'd love it.
5/10




Crazy, Stupid, Love (2011)
"The war between the sexes is over. We won the second women started doing pole dancing for exercise. "
This one is similar to "Love, Wedding, Marriage" in a way.
But still completely different, its about a guy who is about to get separated with his wife. While a bunch of things happen, starting with him getting into a bar complaining about his wife and eventually meeting a guy who teach him how to hook up with womens at the bar. Its a fun movie to watch, funny and overall I like the connection of all the characters.
Stars: Steve Carrel, Ryan Gosling, Julianne Moore, Emma Stone, Analeigh Tipton
7/10




Take Me Home Tonight (2011)
Okay, this story is a little more typical. Its 4 years after graduation and old schoolmates having a Labor Day party as a reunion, where the main character Matt tries to tell his high school crush how he feels about her, with a bunch of lies cos' he thinks he isn't good enough for her.
Typical story :) fill in the blanks yourself. but its still quite a nice movie.
5/10




Prom (2011)
"When I'm about to kiss you, you'll know it."
Teenage Disney Movie!! :) This is worth watching!
The song u're hearing in my blog now. is from this movie! ahaha.. Its good. A little typical, but thats how disney is. Its about how everyone in school react and change differently when its nearing the graduation day. And how prom is the big event where everyone who probably never even speak to each other can get together and have a final day at school with one another. and if find the main actress: Aimee Teegarden, pretty good in this movie. :D
7/10




Beastly (2011)
"People make such a big deal about looks, but when you know someone you don't even notice them anymore. "
My friend told me that this movie sucked cos it wasn't as good as the book and that twilight movie was better. okay, taking that into consideration. I watched the movie, and found the movie actually is quite nice. Probably cos' I never read the book but its still nice, its more romantic than twilight. If you dont know, the story is basically a Beauty and The Beast story. How a popular and handsome guy was cursed to look ugly until he finds someone who can love him beyond outer looks and see inner beauty instead. :) And Vanessa Hudgens wasnt tat bad in this movie.
7/10




Monte Carlo (2011)
"I finally meet a guy who likes me for me. And I'm not even me."
This movie is nice, it gave me the whole princess diary feel to it.. I guess its due to the whole european and rich theme to the whole story. Its good, its more a teenage movie than pure romance. but worth watching :)

And I'd like to add that I never liked Selena Gomez, and the reason I watch this movie was cos of Leighton Meester.. But after watching is movie, I find Selena not that bad. I guess I only disliked her due to Justin Bieber. ahaha.. mehh~

Still a good movie :) the typical being an imposter of a superstar story but with a little bit of family drama and you have a pretty solid storyline.
8/10




The Vow (2012)
" I vow to love you, and no matter what challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other. "

Okay, I gotta say, this is an amazing story :)
I love everything about this.. Its just nice to watch.. another movie to leave me speechless. The story is about how a married couple got into a car accident and the girl lose her memory. And the guy tries as best he could to make her fall in love with him again..
I loved this movie~
8/10





That's it :) and it really makes me wonder if love in real life would ever be as blissful and happy as the movies.. hmm~

I'm Suffocating

I'm my own worse enemy~

I'm feeling horrible :\ worse than horrible in fact.
ahahaha.. I feel alone.. oh soo alone..

Yes, I'm alone by choice.
I don't want to get hurt anymore..
Its a decision I've made cos' I've been hurt by people enough this year.
I know its just half the year, but I've been hurt wayy too much already.
and no one even cares much anyway.
Those that do care are too far away from me to help.

Gawd, I cant wait to leave this heartless place behind ... :\
I've GIVEN UP... cos there's nothing left for me..
Right now my life is like extremely emotional.
I feel like jumping off a cliff the moment I find a cliff that's high enough to kill me.
Hmm.. I remember I use to be emotional like this..
Its been a long time .__.
And now I've come right around in a full circle back to point 1 of emotionality.
I gotta say, it bites just as much as it did 7years ago.

I've taken a chance in a more positive life, lived my life in a slightly brighter light.
Crawling in the grey area.. but after everything..
I feel the way I felt back then, people are overrated, all they do is hurt, cheat, leave, lie.
As if it means anything in the end.. what happens at the end of their life?
regret? perhaps disappointment or self-hatred? whatever the case...
I've clawed my way back into the embrace of darkness..
For how long will I stay? I do not know..
But if I can make it through these dark days by the time of opportunity,
I'm sure things will get better... probably..

But if things were to get worse before then...
I dare not think of it... :|

Shadows has overtaken me...

I just want to shut my eyes and drift away...



Shut your eyes and think of somewhere
Somewhere cold and caked in snow
By the fire we break the quiet
Learn to wear each other well

And when the worrying starts to hurt
and the world feels like graves of dirt
Just close your eyes until
you can imagine this place, yeah, our secret space at will

Shut your eyes, I spin the big chair
And you'll feel dizzy, light, and free
And falling gently on the cushion
You can come and sing to me

And when the worrying starts to hurt
and the world feels like graves of dirt
Just close your eyes until
you can imagine this place, yeah, our secret space at will

(Shut your eyes [x4])

Shut your eyes and sing to me (Shut your eyes and sing to me) [x4]

Incapability

Uhmm I've been well.. over-thinking.. as always.
"Incapability" is the word :)

A long time ago, I wondered about all the worse case scenario if a relationship.
First, would be being in love with a sick girl. I'd do my best to visit her everyday.
Let her experience everything in life, and make her happy...
Remember my post last time about feeling horrible about Ayuko's death..
yeah.. that feeling still remains of course..
As well as the lingering feeling of Incapability..
As I wasn't even able to be there for her, I couldn't even be there for her funeral..
yeah.. :|

Another worse case scenario would be
falling in love with a pregnant girl who doesnt have a husband.
well, if I was in love with her, i'd support her n her family without a doubt. :)
even if she isn't ready for a relationship or whatever that'd be what i'd do.
My friend is going through a similar situation, I wish I could do something.
But I incapable...
knowing the problem, knowing what to do is one thing.
But to have the materials and funds to do it is another .__.
At times I wish I was born into a rich family, to stop seeing people going through such hard fates.
But I wasnt born rich... :(

In a relationship,
She deserves someone who can make her happy and give her a happy life.
As well as one who can provide for her and her family.
And make her smile everyday without a doubt.

But again, I'm Incapable.
This world is too materialistic for the likes of a lover like me .__.

I wish I could be there to hug you and tell you that everything is alright.
That you can let it go, let everything go
and just let the tears fall and disappear forever.
To allow you to be free from the sadness and emptiness.
To show you how true love really is like, without the sad depression.
To be the guide you wish for soo dearly.
But, I'm incapable of it... I'll be leaving soon :|

I guess at some point I've made my choice that my dream of leaving.
The choice to press the reset button on my life,
is more important than giving everything I am to a relationship.
I've not felt happy in a long time. And don't think I will anytime soon.
I just want to stop loving for now.. I cant handle the pain..

I'm emotional, spiritual, forgiving, self-less, faster, stronger, smarter, creative, hardworking and overall good in everything I want to be good in..
My goal in life is to reach as close to PERFECT as I possibly can..
I may not be rich, but i'm still one of the best person anyone could ever find.
I may be incapable of giving a lover everything she wants,
but I'll be the person to give her everything she needs..

I only wonder now if there is anyone out there for me .__.
Alas.. I'm incapable of seeing the future..

I fear, my goal for perfection would leave me a bachelor forever..
Often I wonder, would that be soo bad? :\

ahaha~ one of my friend told me that, she'd prefer me to be in love than single forever.
I asked her why, she said she just does..

To be honest, I do too.. I miss having someone to hold/someone to hold me.
Unless love is something as simple as emotions, feelings, desires, gift of chocolates and roses..
I dont see how I can fit in to it now...

Now.. all i see that maintains a relationship mainly... is money..
The world today is of such insecurity and incapability of loving until no matter what you do..
There isn't any love left.. No one love like they should anymore.
It isn't real... how can I be with someone who isnt a true lover?
Simple, I cant. But how does one differentiate a true lover from a fake one?
it isn't possible. The incapability of seeing a person's true form, is scary...
It doesnt provide happiness nor fulfillment like a relationship is suppose to....

I may not be capable of being perfectly nice and rich at the same time.
But I'm definitely capable of loving with my whole heart, are you?